Did I choose the right path?

I took a big step in my life.

I quit from my job, which means I left from my stable life. This path that I took, was good. The job, the people, the place, I found them quite good. I actually dont have any reason to quit, and if I quit, I want to quit because of this one and only reason:

I got a scholarship to study overseas, at a top university.

Its my dream.

And guess what, it really came true!

I applied the scholarship program, I took the exams, and I got it!

So yeah, it happened just like what I want.

Then, here I am, at different path.

Living an unstable life.

Because of the pandemic, I cant go to my uni. Im still in my country, but Im taking classes online, though. And I find myself quite stressed. The pressure is real, especially because I have to conduct a research, but I dont know does the research theme I picked is doable in this pandemic situation? I cant even write the inteoduction.

One thing that bothers me is, I feel like my life is unstable. There are a lot of uncertainties right now, and in the future.

I dont know, will I do good in that top uni? What if I failed? What if I actually dont deserve to be there?

Even if I succeeded, what will I do after that? If in the end I will come back to do a job like I did before, whats the point of me going to Master program?

If its like that, isnt it better to just not apply for the scholarship, and continue to work?