Faithful Prune Diaries #1

Hi! I'm just now starting my personal diary here. If you want to post in my threads, that's okay. I have been dealing with a lot of depression for the majority of my life. I have been dealing with thoughts of death. I guess that's part of it. I have been having suicidal thoughts for the past few years with no plan until last Spring they started getting stronger and more clear and I've been thinking on a plan. My daughter knows about it and has said something to my family and they would get defensive. But when I say something, I get brushed off like it's nothing. My family thinks this is all for attention, but it's not. I have severe depression and I can't take it anymore. I'm tired of fighting it. I've even caused fights just by reaching out to them, so I don't like to say anything about it anymore. Why can't they just listen to me instead of ''ts not about you anymore' or 'its for attention'. I already know how I want to kill myself and what are they going to do then? It'll be too late. That's why I'm trying to say something before I do it. Thanks for the listening 7 Cuppers!