Faithful Prune Diaries #4 (Everyone Welcome to Respond)

Well, hey there! I have been trying to figure out things to put the suicidal thoughts to the side. I have been trying to read and even applied for a job yesterday, knowing my mind isn't where it needs to be. I've thought about applying for TANF in my state, but that is something I might hold off until the beginning of the year, when businesses slow down from the Holidays. Coming here to 7 Cups helps push it to the side for a moment. It's just so hard to talk to people about it, especially when you get questioned about what was said at the counselor's office, like the people questioning are "helping" as they say just to get the credit for it. If I journal, I have to do it online because I will get chewed out for what I said. It's pretty hard for me and they don't believe me anyway. Well, who knows? Hopefully things will get better soon. Take care!