Feeling Angry or Grumpy? Share your frustrations!! Let it out!
I'm really angry that people are angry and aggressive at me for doing something they cannot and will not do for themselves. I really am angry at the injustice of these situations and being blamed for it where it affects my life. I have a high risk of having long term consequences for doing the wrong thing and more risks of doing the right thing. I'm running out of creative ways to navigate through this let alone the endurance to keep my chin up.
I know I deserve to be hated, but I've also done everything to make up for what I did. Im sorry it's been five years please let it go. Stop holding it over my head. I know I'm messed up stop reminding me...please.
@Imtrying8899 You reflected on your mistakes and did something about it. That actually makes you a great person. If people keep mentioning your mistake over and over again, it's not you who's the bad person. Don't let them weaken you.
I feel so frustrated at myself for feeling so willful. I don't like that I can't be reliable. I just want to be able to feel the motivation to do the things that need doing. I don't want my house mates to have to pick up after me for the chores I've agreed to do. I want to be able to stick to a schedule. I want my past trauma to stop taking my motivation from me and filling me with fear for doing the most basic of things.
I wish I could reason with myself, but it seems like it's not something that's vulnerable to reason, no matter how hard I try. If I force myself, I just get more willful for the next time. But I can't just live doing only the things I like doing. I feel so selfish for that, like there's a stubborn, spoiled, fearful, angry, hurt, willful child in me that refuses to do any hard work, despite how well I've been able to power through things in the past. I wish it would release me of its grip so I can function again, like the responsible adult I've been before and know I can be.
I hate myself for hating myself, I've reached paradoxical self-perpetuating planes of hatred at my refusal to think about the future because it's scary and unstable
I'm mad that I hate myself. I'm mad that people have never noticed, even though I show obvious signs. I'm mad that people are so straightforward and unsupportave..
I hate to think about how much I deserve everything coming for me. But none of it would have happened if people didn't come into my life and play with me like I was a puppet. I hate that I let myself fall into that trap and now when I see your face it reminds me of every little thing you did to me me and I try not to look at you because it will make me hate myself though I have no reason to.
@Chloelayne1914 im having nearly the same feeling
How is it that a family man. Whom had everything that could ever be asked for turn their back on their own family ?
I am angry at myself for consistently undervaluing myself in all areas of my life and then wondering why people treat me bad. I let them!
moved into my lovers appartment bc i got kicked out a year ago and since then i cant shake the feeling of loneliness and emptiness. the constant reminder that i have no one but him, is scary and triggers me. i dont know how not to let this eat me up.
I've been dealing with a shoulder injury that's laid me up for just shy of a year now. A few weeks ago I just had reconstructive surgery on it, and I'm so tired of dealing with a pattern of pain and exhaustion and the sense of being a burden.
Realistically I know it'll get better, I know there's so many more people going through worse things, I have a good support system if I just allow myself to accept it. I'm just too mentally and physically exhausted.
