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Well I'm a 18 year old girl who hates people. That is a fact. I'm angry because my moms niece ended up moving across the street from us literally. Before that the past 7.5 months she was staying with us. While her mom was trying to find a place for them. She keeps coming back to my house all the time. I hate her so much I can sense when she just walked through the front door & when I'm sleeping the second I hear her laugh, talk. I wake up with my heart beating super fast. So everytime she comes which is atleast 3-5 times a week. I go in my closet, shut the door and listen to Green Day and stay in there for like 4-5 hrs well whenever she leaves. I become numb probablly due to the lack of oxygen going to my brain. Well I've come to a realization that I will never escape. I had a dream last night that I finally got to stab her with a knife. I mean oh my. I wad so FREAKIN HAPPY. But then I woke up and cried because I wish it could happen. One can only dream right? So yes I'm doomed. I bet a serial killer would understand me.

I want to have a fit and a healthy body..

but i cant ...

I still cant find that thing that can motivate me

Even my family are discouraging me that i cant lose wait...

Xoxo

@Laura

I'm sick of a world that puts so much emphasis on gender roles and procreation! As someone who is agender, I has never imagined in my life that anybody would take pride in their biological and societal problems and the roles and rules that they are confined to, based on the body they are born in, but boy was I ever wrong! People even seem to exploit that stuff and use them as ego platforms to justify their sex or gender as being better than the others! It just seems so barbaric to me! I wish people would cut that out, and work together ro fix such issues! If I ever DARE question such norms, I seem to get hate for it! Either that, or the person doesn't fully understand how I feel! Sometimes even both!

I feel like the only human in the world full of preprogrammed robots, or clones, a lot like Finn from Star Wars 7. I just want to escape it all, I don't know a single soul who feels the same way that I do, and I feel so isolated and alone!

My entire life angers me. The worst part is how little I want to live. And how guilty I feel for feeling this way.

I apologized to my mother in law for something I did 2 months ago and she hasn't responded. It makes me feel like im not allowed to make mistakes.

My step mom treats me terribly. She let's all her anger out on me, and my dad doesn't say anything and always agrees with her to keep her happy!! I'm so sick of it.

Already I am anlot stressed as it is... now I had to listen the hellish news that the guy I loved who rejected me and for whom I have been pining for past two years ,did I forget to say he is my best friend who stopped speaking with me is returning to my very college to do masters . If this is not some sort of cliche novelish thing I used to write I don't know what it is.

I am feeling frustrated because of friends. It is hard finding out that they all meet up and talk shit about you.

I'm at a birthday party and everyone hates me even the birthday girl right now I'm in the corner on my iPad while they have cake ignoring me

I'm angry my husband died. I'm angry and feel excessive guilt because, despite years of training and retraining, me performing CPR could not save him. I'm angry that I'm now forced to live my life widowed and alone. I'm angry I won't grow old(er) with him like he promised we would. I'm angry that everyone in my life expects me to not still have a shattered heart 1 year, 7 months, and 29 days after his death. I'm angry I'm still alive and he is still dead.