Im grumpy alot because im constantly walking on eggshells..then being taken adantage of that..

Money Money

Everything is about money ..

That's all the Sad world cares about ..making Money....

Me me me give me money

Choices

Can't change the past
But you can move forward .

I'm really pissed right now! how dare he call.me them put me on hold for one of his bitches! who the hell does that? wow... I just want to cry I feel as though I'm not worth shit to anyone. just lay down and go to permanent sleep is all I want to do ..

I'd be better offanyway.

I am so incredibly hurt and angry right now. I live in a family where I am babied hardcore. It may sound wonderful on the surface, but I feel like I am incapable of making the simplest things on my own. Today was in fact a really funny day, when I was doing my laundry and a family member got on my case that I Should do it This way and I Should time it That way, and I Should have done This before and so on. While another family member to whom I complained about it started telling me what I Should have responded to that other person, how I Should have handled the situation and how I Should have done the laundry the way I want to, then moving on to telling me what that other person Should have done, and how they Should have minded their business. Anyway I just regretted complaining, something I regret often in my family. All those should have me feeling so broken so wrong and like such a misfit.

But honestly it's not even that... that really bothered me. Today my mother has told me what to do in case she dies. Every now and then she tells me she is going to die and she makes a whole scene out of it which is emotionally Incredibly Draining. I used to feel worried back in the days, nowadays she is like the boy that cried wolf, I just get frustrated, tired, but I just can't keep up with worrying about it every single time she mentions it. Yet I can't take it out on her, because clearly she is frustrated too, so I usually just swallow her and my frustration, but today... I unleashed it upon the person who told me how to do my laundry and they don't even know it's not about the laundry. They must think I am total princess overreacting to their incredibly annoying and unhelpful criticism. Yet I can't tell them what it's about because I know they are also highly hysterical and telling them will put the whole family into a hysterical mode, where my mom will feel harrassed betrayed and bombarded and it will all come back to me. Besides the person I snapped on, is better of believing it's about the laundry, because that way they will think I am an unreasonable shmuck, but at least they won't worry excessively about what is most likely just another of my mom's drama scenes. And like always I try to watch out for all of their feelings (except not being able to hold it all in and snapping, because well I am human) while they all bombard me. Ironically I am the youngest person in my family, the only child, who probably can't do her own laundry right, yet when it comes to emotions I feel like people bombard me like I am the most mature one, but when it comes to other stuff, god forbid I will ruin everything I am still just a child at my yes I am ashamed to admit almost in her thirties age. Yet I can't handle myself, because emotionally I am so drained that when a person speaks to me my immidiate response is... oh NO... run away... something is about to go down, so I can't hold a job, because I just want people to be cartoonishly pleasant to a crazy point, like "Oh my well I can't possibly permit myself to have the last cookie, please you should have it! I insist." and "No no no, I couldn't possibly, let us share it by breaking it in half, shall we?" and "Well yes, this is a marvelous idea!" sort of thing. Sounds amusing, but my god I would love to hear someone This pleasant if only for awhile. I am just so tired. I am sorry if my text is the size of the whole page. I appreciate all of your support and thank you so much for allowing me to express myself here.

I feel angry when iam missunderstood.

Disrespected ..When people in a job let it go to their head I feel belittled embassessd especially when they are reluctant to apologise and their attuide is awfully rude. No one deserves to be put down. And made to feel it was their fault ..it's called not taking responabilty for their behaviour.

The mother of my kids thinks I'm a bad father. No matter what I do it's never enough. She recently dropped off the kids and took off.

She left, I'm still here and would never abandon my children. She wrote a letter to her parents telling them to take the kids.

Even after abandoning her children she's still calling me a bad father.

F*************K!!!!!

i am angry because after 9 months of unemployment i finally get a job, six weeks in and turns out is closing and i am back at unemployment, i feel angry at the stupid things i read that said do what you love and money will follow, i studied what i love and put a business and nobody is intrested, i am angry at myself for being so naive

I am upset and hurt by someone I thought cared. I have done a great deal to help this person in the darkest and leanest times and I have asked for nothing in return. I don't need any more thanks. I don't need promises to someday do the same. I just want the friendship, kindness, compassion. To be included, considered. I feel like I don't exist.

This lady on the plane next to me has been a complete chore of a woman...she has more than once elbowed my arm off the arm rest or touched my hand to move it where she saw fit...the whole six hour flight and some of which was during me trying to sleep...