How im feelinh

people cant live like this
this isnt right this cant carry on
thing do need to change
but how on earth is that mean to happen

people say stop being so selfish
to stop thinking of yourself
im doing this because of other people
my only thoughts is other people

somethings happen by chance
somethings are planned to happen
but then there are some things
that were always going to happen
that have to happen

you sit there thinking back
on those nights you would rather forget
but those moments you cant seem to let go
some things you will never forget

i have spent my life being told what to do
being told how i should live
ending my life would finally be
a choice of my own

yes there are hospital and meds
but what is the point
they wont change the past of the present
mereley mask it for a while

i dont want to just mask it
this needs to completley stop
there is only one way i can think of to do that
and you can guess what that it

i live my own way now
im scared of taking advice from people
it has to be my own choice
not no one elses

its like you are in a tank of water
you stay for a while
then you start to get tired
your not sure how long this can last

you pray for someone to help
but no one is coming
besides what can they do anyway
they cant get you out of that tank

after a while you loose hope of getting out
you hold your breath for as long as you can
but you know this will end
sooner or later.

while you have voices
that tell you all sorts of bad this
how you should just give up and die
why you shouldnt be here