Lentil's Entry

New to 7 cups. I would like to add a trigger warning of domestic violence.

I have been with him for 8 years. Things have been worse than they were tonight however that was before my son, 3 month old bear.

On the scale, this was tame. Shoving, threats and screaming.

But when he held my son away from me while being abusive something snapped.

Over the years I became weirdly conditioned to his sorry the next day, the love bombing. I am not surprised but it is hard to admit.

But I need to stay strong for my son. I cannot have him witness this- or worse be the victim of this. I am glad he will not remember yet terrified this has already hurt him emotionally.

I am scared to be alone and scared to be a single Mum. I am scared my son will miss out somehow, that I can't possibly be enough.

But I must. I have written this to remind myself. Tomorrow when his tears start, the apologies and promises begin I will stand firm. I will leave.

For my son.