@paytonfaye2003
Got it! 😊
How are you doing?
@LinearWaves
Yay, I am so glad you got it... I am okay, been sad alot... I cry alot.
@Paytonfaye2003
*hugs* I
@LinearWaves
I hate crying, I hate my birth mom... I snuck out to see her and it didnt go the way I wanted it too. I hate her. Ireally do. She was so mean to me... Everything is my fault
@Paytonfaye2003
Hey it
@LinearWaves
Are you 13 too?
@Paytonfaye2003
hey
@LinearWaves
I have an eating disorder and I self harm alot. I have overdosed and my foster mom found me in my room unresponsive.. Wish I wasent Saved... I was so angry with her!
@Paytonfaye2003
I
@LinearWaves
You seem older then 21...
@Paytonfaye2003
Well I guess that's kinda true since I'll be 22 in a few weeks haha
@LinearWaves
Ur really smart too, u talk like ur older
@Paytonfaye2003
Thank you I guess ❤️
I think bad stuff make us grow quicker, at least it did to me and you also seem wiser than 13
@LinearWaves
Really i dont think so. I am a brat, a big one
@Paytonfaye2003
You can always be a wise brat ❤
For what it
@LinearWaves
when i was living with my real mom they didnt care. I could do whatever i wanted cause they were busy doing there own thing. I would spend my nights outside cause it was safer than going back home. now being in a foster home i have rules. I am so used to doing whatever i wanted cause thats what i always did. Now i get mouthy when i dont get my way. I always run away and get into trouble alot... im starting to see that my foster mom cares about me, but i still test her alot cause i am afraid she will leave me just like everybody does
@Paytonfaye2003
same i used to live with my nan because my mum died and i said i didnt want to go home but i was in fostercare then i got put in a childrens care home i hate it i want to go home
@rubywoo6676
I
@LinearWaves
i still feel like poop. Im prolly getting sick...
@Paytonfaye2003
*hugs* take good care of yourself I really hope you feel better soon
@LinearWaves
me too...
@Paytonfaye2003
Not sleepy again? :(
@LinearWaves
@Paytonfaye2003
@LinearWaves
Its hard...i feel like shit
@Paytonfaye2003
I know and hey, it's completely okay to cry 
@LinearWaves
no ot aint
@Paytonfaye2003
Why not? :(
@LinearWaves
when i used to cry i would get hit in the back of the head
@Paytonfaye2003
Oh :( Im very sorry to hear that… I can undertsand that it makes you feel like crying is not okay but whoever did that was very wrong, it is okay to have emotions and express them, it is okay to cry. Sometimes though its best to express our true emotions with people we feel safe with <3 Do you still get hit for crying now..?
@LinearWaves
Nooooo
@Paytonfaye2003
Okay I'm glad about that! But well it's still not pleasant to cry 😡
@LinearWaves
Im cranky
@Paytonfaye2003
*hugs* I'm going to work but I hope you can catch some rest and feel better soon ❤
@LinearWaves
night. I guess i will try to sleep. I have to get up in a couple hours for school
@Paytonfaye2003
Good luck and good night 💪 I had to go to work without sleep and that's no fun haha
@LinearWaves
So u should of stayed home
NIGHT
@Paytonfaye2003
I definitely should have lol
I hope your day is going well!
Hey @Paytonfaye2003
Just checking up on you, how are you doing?
@LinearWaves
Im still sick but i am getting over it
@Paytonfaye2003
It's great that you're getting over it! I really hope it passes soon
@LinearWaves
i miss you, cant sleep. Everybody is drinking
@Paytonfaye2003
*hugs* I can't sleep either haha
@LinearWaves
:( You there? I miss you
@Paytonfaye2003
Heya! you can't sleep? :(
@LinearWaves
Nope it sucks too
... Why sleep when you can be online LOL
@Paytonfaye2003
haha I know right? but sleep is important though, so that you're not too tired for the rest of the day and have your eyes not hurt when being online 
@LinearWaves
hmmm, I just aint tired. where have you been by the way. You aint been talking to me?
@Paytonfaye2003
I've been having a hard time managing everything, but trying to get back on tracks now 💪 I missed talking to you!
@LinearWaves
yeah yeah yeah
@Paytonfaye2003
How have you been doing lately?
@LinearWaves
I am ok i guess, Just trying to live one day at a time. and Take it as it goes... Im freezing, and I wanna put the heat on 100. do you think I will get into trouble haha
@Paytonfaye2003
Living one day at a time and taking it as it goes is a really good thing to do
And yeah haha that sounds to be a little too much heating maybe a sweater or another blanket could help without risking troubles?
@LinearWaves
I like it hott, I am sick of this white shit. spring is going to be here soon and it wont stop snowing... Maybe I can pretend Im am sleeping then she wont know it was me haha.. The freaking Cat
@Paytonfaye2003
Yeah haha it was the cat who turned on the heating!
Hopefully spring is coming soon and then summer! So the snow is gonna melt at some point
@LinearWaves
if we ever have a summer... I hate it here. i wanna move someplace warmer... is it cold where u are?
@Paytonfaye2003
You don't really get a nice summer?
Right now it's a bit cold yeah but in summer it'll be better! Not super warm though but okay
@LinearWaves
Whats the temp? You say not super warm, haha bet its warmer then this freaken place... Upstate NY Sucks hairy butt
@Paytonfaye2003
Now is like 40 so it's good but last week was 20 and less, hopefully spring is coming quick
@Paytonfaye2003
Now is like 40 so it's good but last week was 20 and less, hopefully spring is coming quick
@Paytonfaye2003
Hey! I thought I'd use this adorable shiba and its important message to check up on you! How are you doing?
@LinearWaves
I am okay
@LinearWaves
i miss you!
@Paytonfaye2003
I'm glad to hear you're okay!
How's your weekend going?
@LinearWaves
it going okay, i few days ago i fainted at school. Havent been eating
@Paytonfaye2003
Oh.. hey be careful okay? I know its really not easy but really, you have to be careful with food, it can cause serious irreversible damages in your body and well, fainting can really hurt you too, your body and your brain :(
Did you hurt yourself when fainting?
@LinearWaves
i dont think so, i am fine. Just feeling alittle off but i will be alright.
@Paytonfaye2003
Okay, I'm glad you didn't hurt yourself! Just please be careful ❤
@LinearWaves
I didnt mean to do it. I just got dizzy and i passed out... But i am fine... why does everybody worry so much?
@Paytonfaye2003
I know you didn't mean to and it's not your fault at all ❤ We worry because we care for you and don't want you to get hurt
@Paytonfaye2003
Hey, didn't hear from you in a bit, I hope you're doing okay and that the weather is going better where you are ❤️
@LinearWaves
hi, how are u? I miss you. Thought u were busy cause havent heard from you. Its almost 2:20am and i cant sleep.
@Paytonfaye2003
Aww I hope you can catch up some sleep!
And yeah things have been really busy so I haven't had time to check up on you :(
@LinearWaves
its ok, im used to it... but i do miss u. Im still wide awake.
@Paytonfaye2003
Miss you too! I'm sorry that you're used to it.. And hey if anything you can always post here and I'll see the notification and get back to you as quick as possible, okay? ❤
@LinearWaves
k
I've moved this thread to a space we've created for private connection threads :)
