Look into the flames and see what they say 🔥

Just kidding. Why would I waste my precious life energy on people like that?! I would never want to become as lowly and dilapidated as that.

I have better things to do.

I hate bullshitters

I'm living with bullshitting

Get me out of this bullshitting

On second thought I'm over him. I'm just being a puss!

Thieves

**** warning: vulgar language ahead in a very compassionate space ****

Rinse yourself afterwards

So, I was watching this thing called the The Case of the Tan Family or something on YouTube

And it got me mulling over some shit

It was evidence that you can't trust anyone

and this isn't some pulled out of the air airy fairy thing

This is hardcore scientific interrogative stuff

And by anyone I mean anyone

family and friends and strangers

Cause some people ooooh yeah some people are real willing to.shake the boat and your perceptions

But you can't believe that without proof

Or unless you know the person real well and you think yeah I got a hunch who that would be.

Greed, envy, jealousy, it's a pretty ugly thing to wear

And that is in men.(Men don't like women having things - they think it's only prams)

Or women as well - oh yeah women are greedy as fuck

You can see their starved thirst

Especially those who haven't worked a single day in their lives

Think they have a crown of roses over their head because they stomp around a bordered area

Please you wouldn't last a second outside like me

I am grit

e.g. I've worked with 6ft mentally ill criminals and anaethesized them to sleep if they got... rowdy

You don't know my strength but that's the thing

you can't judge a book by its cover and

I'm a classy chick ;)

So it gets to me

That anyone with a dick

And frankly anyone that doesn't have a clue about a feminist stance

Forgets that when the right to vote for women was commissioned a hundred years ago

It changed 3900 years of absolute mayhem towards women

who gets their head chopped off because they didn't bear a son?

oh yeah Anne Boleyn

or stoned to death because they got raped

only in an country with a specific set of laws I don't have to say it

illogical madness

so obviously that sort of world makes no sense

unfit to exist

​​​and now after a hundred years

I would like to kindly remind that as part of this world because

I got educated here

and despite not being from here

of course I don't fit in anywhere properly

I'm a concoction

but i'm proud to be a rarity

that I can have my own property

my own wealth

The choice to be on my own if I choose

if I want to be a whale for 9 months (no thanks)

wear what I want

Say what I want

Do what I want

Stand shoulder to shoulder

without having to share

(did a man do that 200 hundred years ago? No.)

so why not me?

exactly point made.

I can have all the luxuries and privileges that a guy had for centuries

this is MY time

and it's going to stay that way until I get bored of it

AND BREATHE

everything is great

I am a balanced happy compassionate intelligent healthy young woman

aiming high

bright future

The sun will shine tomorrow

It's go to be summer soon

And I'm excited to see my PALS!

And just frolick

And laugh

And bbq's!

Well, I went off on one last night - don't mind me it was just one of those nights!

I'm really homesick... Still.

And I am really nostalgic.

I'm one of those people where an environment really impacts me so having maximum independence and freedom on ensuring it suits me has a positive affect on me...

No wonder I like living on my own...

But I really don't feel comfortable where I am.

The area.

The house.

The people.

After finding out the key thing I kind of realised I don't want another of these situation

I'm kind of done with this city

I'm sort of at the end of my tether.

And I really think the healthiest thing for me to go back where I have familiarity, groundedness and general stuff to work with.

You realize the value of something when it's not there.

where have I ended up?

Daughter and big sister

I've been a friend, a work colleague, a student, a mentor, a leader, a peer, a gym buddy but I've really been missing out on being a daughter and a big sister.

I think I was a pretty decent kid. I was an all-rounder.

But the thing that pangs me the most recently is have I been a decent eldest sister?

​​​​​​There are other relations within the family web that I have to dip into back again.

But 're-claiming my place as the eldest firstborn as daughter and big sister after my studies and career is really a priority now.

I've also been an epic wingwoman!

The questions can also be asked to those in the unit

have you been a decent so and so?

-family musings