Mittens, a weird state

Ive felt weird since the news, a mix of relive but a lingering fear, it sticks in my mind and leaves me anxious and even afraid at times yet I cannot escape it as I could work. It is an issue with myself and my body. I cannot escape being sick and unwell, and I dont seem to be getting better. At least Im a bit better during the day although now late at night when my mind isnt occupied instead of a relief or thoughts of something else far away its distanced by the fear and pain I feel. 
Its like I can get close to normalcy but it will always be out of reach, and I cannot just go back to what I was once the damage is done and Im left with the scars of the past.
On a better note I only had to worry about half of the school day, and slept for most of it after getting some cool new boots/shoes 

Hopefully tomorrow is better, Im gonna sleep 
Take care, stay warm, and have a nice time - Mittens 4/1/2025