Mittens yet again =w=

The day was both stressful and tiring, my anxiety was messing with the day and I really just wanted to get things over with. Yet I still found some hope in the day and a bit of goodness, I got my package in the mail as a late birthday gift and even cleaned up my jacket. 
It helped me pull through to do those things and also be offered help, I'm so tired of this and even frustrated. I used to be such a strong figure, I seemed to be able to carry any weight upon my shoulders as long as I straightened my back and put on a mean face. I was well both as a leader but also on my own, I could fight and pull myself up through *** but that is when it comes to stress and fighting depression. 
Now Anxiety has me gone from being alone and strong to feeling like I'm clinging to people to stay comfortable, vulnerable and weak I didn't have a fear or worry even in the face of a crowd or powerful people, I've faced the wilderness and taken on the world alone for what felt like my entire life with only my gear. 
Not having to worry about that mask here allows me to open up and be comfortable sharing my issues, I may struggle reaching out for help but I am at least doing it but with how new it is all to me to connect with people or even have worries and fear that really shook me to the core. 
Even if it's tiring and new I've made it this far with an undying hope, it is a flame that has died down and left me cold but it has never truly gone. It is a flame in all of you, no matter how dim or cold it is the warmth will be back someday.
Other than all of that I started my day a bit anxious but better than most others, with that though I have to go to live out the rest of this one. 
Take care, stay warm, and have a nice time.
- Mittens 03/26/2025