My Peace

I’ve never had an actual journal before, but I’m glad that I have this because it’s a bit more private.

Day 1 - 08/27/22

I guess I’ll just start off with how I’m feeling or how I’ve felt this week— I’ve felt off, different, more emotional. There’s no explanation other than it’s that time of the month but it’s never been like this before. My anxieties, triggers and everything else has been bothering me. I feel like people are avoiding me or don’t want to talk to me. Or they don’t speak to me unless I speak to them first. It’s just bothers me that even my boyfriend seems he doesn’t wanna be around me, until last night that is. We had a movie night and we all had a good time. But even today, it may only be noon but nothing yet. Maybe it’s just me but I hate it when someone reads my messages and doesn’t respond. He’ll probably say he fell back asleep but I’ve never met anyone that sleeps as much as he does. He will literally sleep all day. I spent a week and a half with him and we only had sex once in that time. Before that it was about a week since the last time. It could just be that since my emotions are everywhere, I’m feeling like it’s me, I t’s my fault or something when I know it’s not.