My diary

damn... it's been a while.

julianne and i broke up and i'm finishing therapy in a few weeks.

i'm not okay, but im working on it.

i'm 16 now.

im tired and exhausted.

this year will be my last year in highschool.

i've given myself 2 new tattoos.

i think i may just leave 7 cups honestly.

it's been a big help for a while, but i think it's time for me to move on you know?

been here since i turned 14, 2 years of memories and all that good stuff.

i think i'm going to copy my diary onto google docs, just for the memories you know?

I'll think about it.

Hi,

It's Isa now, I'm turning 17 in august and am graduating highschool in three weeks.

Julianne and I don't talk anymore, I blew up on her and it made her quit.

A lot of my friends quit on me.

I stopped being nice and soft and I'm always angry and self-loathing.

I hate a lot of stuff, but it's fine, I'll be fine.

I'm a month and two weeks clean from self-harm, but i did take up light smoking.

I write fanfiction now though and have an anonymous poetry book on Archive of our Own called Letters In Confidence.

It's shitty and vulgar poetry, but it helps me describe how i feel in an artistic way.

I think I'm doing better.

I might delete my 7 cups account later. I think it's time to move on.

My groomer was here, I met him here, i met a lot of beautiful and hurtful people here.

I need a fresh start, just as i am going into college in the city and far away from my house, getting into a new environment that will kill me in the most beautiful way.

I need a new start, so i'm leaving this behind.

This is my diary from 2019-2021

My name is Isa, I am sixteen years old, I'm graduating in a few weeks

and this is goodbye.