Oh...I think I'm a charmer

It just occurred to me that I guess I have this ability to make people feel special and cared about in a way that no one else has...

But to be honest, my actual feelings couldn't be further from the truth.

I don't want it like this but idk. It's hard trying to fix myself all alone, not having a professional. Just one more way that I'm disgusting and undeserving of ever having another conversation with the people that have left me.