One thing is certain though:I NEED to figure my issues in regards to North Korea.

I know for a FACT that this nonsense cannot continue,but I have no idea where to begin.

I'm tired of this,being afraid of them and acting a fool and being obsessed with them.

I even said I wanted to enlist so I could KILL a few of them in war!

But,I've been thinking about it a bit...and I'm doubting that that's even an option.

All I know is that I need to get to the bottom of this...I need to end this.

I don't want to live scared anymore,but it feels like fear is just frakking everywhere.

I'm so sick of it. This is just getting in the way of my life.

I even hated Koreans and Chinese because of this BS. And turns out they're not even that bad.

And one thing that makes this all even more ridiculous is that ,at least as far as me hating koreans went,that was caused because TWO girls decided to get mean on me..And then I decided to hold all Koreans in contempt.

And then North Korea started up their nonsense.

This fear,this anger,this rigamarole is getting me nowhere.

This year coming,I'll dedicate it to fixing this nonsense...but I just hope I can excise at least some of it.

I don't want this anymore.

Contemplating suicide,cutting myself,being angry.

I've never been at such a low level in my life.

It's just messed up.

I've had it...I need to fix this mess.

I hope I can do it this year.