Open to any replies:A diary of Polaris2088

Post-micronationalism

Orientado al futuro

E-citizenship/..'liquid citizenship'(?)..brought up here is fascinating https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=Fi1xlDffnJA

School wasn't right for me. Happy about your victory past harassers =_= ?!.

I will admit that along w/moving out, what factor might benefit my mental health is moving out to a different city , the fact that I wouldn't have ~+18 yrs of agony* to draw on almost whenever I look around the not even ~10 km radius which comprises Hamilton, where I can bus,bike or walk through but not drive on my own..

*I am well aware of how I am not alone in that feeling..it happens d--n well to Torontonians as well..

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When it comes to career growth..what justification can I bring up to be a library page elsewhere even after ~3 yrs?..were I to move to another city would I find the same job w/out too much struggle?..

'_' The ridiculous level of risk which comes w/the human experience, 'Maslow's...needs' and all and choosing to venturing somewhere barely ~50 km, I would say away..

__Workplace infrapolitics--

I find the Ted Chiang short story 'Seventy-Two Letters' significant b/c even w/it's steampunk like setting plus the presence of golems from Jewish folklore and a world where the pre-embryological notion of preformationism is a reality but also for demonstrating in a fictional Britian how 'non-underclasses' would become aware of this 'science' (the golems and implications of preformationism) to talk out in parliments what essentially adds up a eugenics policy to anyone who is poor..it's interesting how the non-participation of underclasses, the lack of access and classism is so prevalent that it's almost pulled off (in the story)..

When it comes to historical (Western) eugenics, Peter Coffin covers that as a part of this contentious video

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lMbvtmb79N0

..but let me say this, that even w/more internet awareness of kyriachies, it's the apathetic self-deception addiction to kyriarchies in most of the world where postindustrial style scarcity hasn't been achieved yet which makes for deadly attitudes and resentments..it might not always mean 'One child nation documentary' results but...in the way ppl talk about hypergamy when it comes to relationships and possible families..

et al, etc..of course 'take it w/a grain of salt' it's coming from a 'friendless loser' w/non-relationships, no non-familial relationships who is resentful for not moving out as he would 'want it' ideally to be ;ableism prevails and it means something to autistics..

It wasn't too long ago, it was still only **last year** that 'Thanos was right' postings were around.

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It s---ks when your problems too soon turn out to be political..like 'the pipe dream' that safe, needs meeting housing and apartments would be as available as much a right for 20 somethings someday as much of a present right as maternity wards.

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To me it's not a question of don't you want that?, wouldn't you want that? it's a question of I never wanted that..

One is about exploration and exploring possibilities, the other about evaluating and evaluating and arriving at a 'negation' or 'simplification' depending on how you see the 'one less..' attitude. I never wanted a lack of space, to still be w/parents after the mid-20's but you ppl =_= /society says my sophomoric attitude would sooner be taking their own lives than yield to more-than-decent (customer(?) =_=) service when it comes to housing agencies making 'good results' happen sooner so I can 'get it on' w/the expectation of a low-key relatively uneventful life but one where I can still pay taxes and such....

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'Edgelord excess'

......this stuff is why I'm highly resistant to words like 'tradition' not that 'youthful eternal rebellion and irresponsibility' gets my uncoerced vouching..

Saying simple things complexly is part and parcel of me.

[Not being able to move out]

such are the elements which let 'jaramarana' thrive..

Realizations for post-drawing class...

...I've come to realize in the space of privledge which I have of holding the jobs I hold whilst taking one recreational class..

(i)it's aggravating how little real desk space there is at home..

(ii) it's aggravating how btw the demands and commitments of chores and stuff outside the house (ex.work)..very little time (particularly w/the needs of unasked for pets =_= ) remains for *quality* solitude, 'most mindful and unagitated'

..the pangs and impatience to leave home already..

Considering (ii) is important b/c 'price tag' aside if I hypothetically undergo further 'rounds' of classes for whatever reason (career advancement or recreational or self-improvement based) in the future (ii) might change in that that presence won't be as much of a thing and I sure would expect (i) not to be an issue

-_- *nervous chuckle* ...ahh the s--t which makes me feel that 'postfriendship' relationships are not too feasible for me, hence audacity to proclaim 'seclusion for higher purpose'/'art eremitism'

I still have not decided on a 'theme' or subjects for the last art project..*sigh*

Could you imagine what it would mean if only apparently attractive men like Mike Channing Tatum were allowed to draw 'pin up' style?. Could you imagine what it would mean if it were only acceptable from apparently attractive men like Mike Channing Tatum to be allowed to draw 'pin up' style ?? .

Boredom is a form of stress. It's helpful to remind myself of that. It's helpful to remember that.