Open to any replies:A diary of Polaris2088
No shame in starting again in a different place, different from the virtual space previously. No shame in not knowing how it would be used or how often.
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If seeking to read something sad and gross in fiction, suggestion here –https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/134203.Between_the_Bridge_and_the_River ; I work at a library. '_' d
H—yes, I can be microaggressive in my tone of writing.
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Its not a self-demonstrating contradiction.
I would love to be exposed to accounts about how sarcasm is a low form of wit..
..post-irony..
Based on my experience at an improv acting event once, I have this idea for an assertiveness program:..
..have persons ‘act out as best they can how they would behave if them being upset or vouching for themselves wasnt mediated and came out of impulse before being commented on by say a counselor and being told to act out the situation again, albeit w/adjustments based on the comments meant to help, told to them.
When you feel that you would rather ‘come back
When you find it crazy that what you find attractive personality wise is someone who is capable of taking risk but who you 'w/ uncompromising standards' can still find yourself trusting and loving. Their responsibility.
Liking the jazz piece 'Salt peanuts'.
How can you tell when a response is patriarchial or high in 'toxic masculinity' and not merely (albeit maybe w/the illusion of 'choiceless violence') a response to competition?..
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The problem w/me arriving at self-acceptance while chatting w/someone is that it's bloody hard to find someone who can express themselves eloquently about aside from d--n platitudes like 'chill', 'relax','no worries', 'don't worry' or 'no problem'..b/c if it is truly so important for you wouldn't you put the effort to explain it well?.
Will admit nearly 'feel for cheesecake' again..
I take on too much...b/c in a very real sense sans a 'gap yr from mid '10- mid '11 I haven't really taken a break from school..from 'formal learning instituitions' one way or another..
Mohawk grad o' '17..even then..training component of call centre work, 'G1' prep course...'Threshold school of building' maintenance course earlier this yr..Udemy sign up if it counts and drawing course since September..
Constant exposure to school, sure...but was ever relaxed?, was I ever enjoying myself all that often?..
..d--bag student bodies, teachers who didn't do their jobs..
