Open to any replies: Diary of Polaris2088

I feel for *reading* as much fiction as I think I ought to be.

B/c I believe

(~+34:45 of https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LHhRAQ8uCrc&t=1130s)

+(~17:45-18:50 of youtu.be/p8e1ZYB8NU4?t=1064)

..this https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bFbZFmrBNf4 is like this https://youtu.be/NGFr0JCqxb4?t=157 to me= stuff to not forget when he is not around for the 'Gen.8' anime

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.. #PostAshAnime memes ;I ..

I like 'putting in plugs' to spread compassion.

Lest this increase into something even less comfortable, I think I'm starting to recognize the jadedness of my ~supervisor '~' . A tendency to gossip (arguably) at least w/certain coworkers--the look given to me when I mean to ask her something while she is finishing talking about her parents having passed away years ago is actually not different, not too different from when I asked her stuff while doing computer work earlier on and that bothers me.

It's a touchy topic for my sister but I mean to some day talk to her about use of the cuss word f-a-t-a-- and how when upset even I'm not beyond it. Feel conflicted b/c in spite of knowing how weight is a sensitive topic for her, I can think of two ppl who I feel hateful enough towards that, that swear among others come to mind.

Inspired by the differentiation btw 'dirty' and 'fighting' words in this video https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1ESU5ONMMxs

There are validly triggering words in that video. Now that being said, it makes me think about this possible judgement of others: are you the sort of person who relishes in being rebellious and doing what others telling you to avert?..b/c you might be 'disappointed' by how complicated 'carelessly thrown' words are examined and find it dry instead of the apparent expectation of stimulation by engaging the taboo. Are you the sort of person who actually adheres or takes seriously when others tell you to avoid stuff?..b/c if so a part of me would appreciate that you watch it at your own convience* b/c by taking it seriously, by taking it responsibly your not contributing the destructiveness that is the human apathy/thin temperment aspect of the human experience which fuels the 'junk' which someone has to confront and analyze (philosophers) and I wind up not feeling that it was counterproductive to mention this video.

* I type this bringing to mind an instant in which I mentioned a validly disturbing movie director and the listener unhesistantly said that they were going to watch their movies--I felt conflicted afterwards whether it would 'hurt or help' to send a link to a film theory/criticism video I found useful in understanding said director.

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>:I Argg, not finding my device.

So much is riding on heavy precipitation and ice slicked streets and roads not being too much of a thing this winter to make feasibly biking home from work, from the sketchy area once sunset's impact soon sets in the mental illness inducing Canadian winter.

I never became or attained Wim Hof's meditation modulatation expertise but d--n is it something to try.

When an a--hole listener starts ranting at you for 'not sounding like other ppl' ,berating you even though they say they have the same mental health caveat and disengage.

" " judgementally says ~'that's sad' and in what you think is judgemental snobbiness says they don't want to continue..

=_= it's a mental health website fools. One was from a country known for it's 'highfalutin' cultural reputation, another one in which English is spoken much and the persons not uncommonly berated in the English speaking world.

The sort of bad memories which made me type some of the things I have typed into my profile.

Videos games are more a winter thing imo. When you would like to be active but the weather outside is not appealing but you would like to do something more active than reading.

I think that when it comes to possibly adapting Pokemon into live-action*, I think that it might really help that when it comes to hodge-podging something which encapsulates a 'generation' into a story, like how the X-men stories usually got** the 'essence' of a old storyline encapsulated but took liberties elsewhere which didn't flounder up too much***, it might actually help to adapt elements of the Pokemon animated movies between "the first movie" and "I choose you" (2017).

In a lot of ways, those movies tried to capture (pun not intended) the significance of the legendary Pokemon and still had the 'crime groups interfering' plots as well. It's more efficacious than following the manga or games 'note for note'--look to Synder's 'Watchmen' uncut version or not as an example of how complaints can still happen when you are like +80% direct w/an adaptation.

*'rumours' about 'Colesium' and 'XD: Gale of darkness' being adapted aside.

** or at least tried to--looking at you "the last stand" and "dark phoenix"

***the moderate achievement of 'Detective Pikachu' was b/c of this imo

Are we at a loss for not really knowing the exact time for when a posting was made? '~' ..