Open to any replies: Diary of Polaris2088

A rare moment when you look up ‘someone you used to know on Facebook and are glad to see them.

Undertale on the 3/2DS line..

I wish I could trade my Pokemon Moon and ~'Rumble(?)' game for a 3DS version/porting of 'Myst' and something else..

The old 'Moomin' and 'Charlie Brown' TV cartoons; I think that the GBC or GBA versions of Mario Tennis would look 'cute' if remade w/the graphics of the Switch version of 'The legend of Zelda: Link's awakening'.

The 'Jet set radio future' soundtrack is to me one of the most examplar examples of hip-hop being used as 'hype' music. It came out in the early 00's and still holds up in consistent use for that reason imo--which is impressive and makes sense in a game about teens racing around on roller blades tagging and avoiding police capture in a 'near future' setting.

The soundtrack for 'Arrival' is a nice example of mainly *suspenseful* ambient music. The late Jóhann Jóhannsson did well and I wish I could find a appropriate scenerio to play 'Heptapod B'.

Camomille tea. Camomille tea--that marginally psychoactive drinking substannce and an antithesis to caffeine and coffee's culturally endorsed stimulation. Why am I reluctant to drink camomille tea?. Why am I reluctant to drink camomille tea or even peppermint tea instead?.

Last week I drank some throughout the week. The anxiety alleviation is there,true/sure but let me tell you that my body/mind will 'counteract' w/it's own stimulation efforts. it usually means exercise but at worst I think it's what led me to porno-binging throughout the turn of last week.

My fear of repeating that is why I am reluctant to drink camomille tea or even peppermint tea instead.

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In the meantime waiting a maintenance person to arrive and do work on the upstairs washroom ceiling.

"9-12-2k19

W/out friends Im living in ‘bad faith.

Sages only meant/referred to persons who were successfully able to see themselves as individuals.

Joakim Graff.

9-14-2k19

Friendship is under the umbrella of socializing not socializing under the umbrella of friendship.

9-15-2k19

Why is it so hard to admit you like fighting?.

9-16-2k19

Nothing wrong w/being lost

Nada mal con estando perdido

Nothing wrong w/being lost

'Two set' are starting to annoy me in that Eddy & Brett still have that annoying 20 something cockiness, connected not the least in cockiness and cocky belief in a model minority myth (‘Ling ling) highly & dangerously negligent of how yes even Asians have to confront classist rooted intragroup behaviourists/ideologies [which impact mental health].

I like Adam Neely better, it s—ks that when you have as much talent, raw, valid practise as they do, dismantling such an attitude is all the more difficult. ‘Creative types & Youtube.

(*sigh* =_______________=) *

I hate how I might be @ the pt. *again, where I am figuring out where my values lie.

No es tan divertido como lo pense. No Eric Baofu.

*sigh* I can find a woman attractive but that mutually said attracted-to woman thinks the same mutually of me is d--- unbelievable.

You can say that studying Buddhist sacred literature is more 'imeediate' in terms of being considered 'anciet south Asian' theories o'mind hermeneutics 'from the get go'.

Nothing wrong w/being a big fairly tempermental kaijuu.

I wonder if Derrida's philosophy could find a place w/in the subsistence class of Meinong's ontology?.

Tired of the liars & rebels.

'Action'/performance > 'genre'.

The 'geography now' logo shirt actually seems nice.

9-17-2k19

What is reflective of any desire to socialize is 'people drawing'.

What I have to look forward to upon moving out is doing the same thing I normally do to relax (the bliss sans distraction sensation)."

Let me say this in a place that probably doesn't matter much: the headache and 'hang-up' of having played Pokemon so late into the night that regrets still hang on.

Digimon Tri Abridged Episode 2 Pure Sincerity by 'TeamMouthwash' 26:39 - 27:19

"Joe, Digimon aren't you childhood. Yes you discovered them when you
were a kid, Joe. Yes they might not have a place in your adult life, but
if you think that to become an adult you have to give them up your wrong.

"What do you mean?"

"Joe, I don't think that being mature means giving up the things you love. It doesn't mean separating from all the things you discovered as a kid. Joe, growing up I think..I think it just means understanding why you love
what you love and deciding where it belongs in your life.

Digimon isn't your childhood.Gomamon isn't holding you back. Gomamon is your friend and I think the reason you've been staying
awake [or away(?)] is because you want to be his friend too. "

"Kari I don't know but thank you."

Last I checked, copyright reasons was the reason that video was taken down.

Don't give false hope to dogs.

‘EB games

What I like about vapourware is how it connects to 'city funk' music/ 70's-80's Japanese pop, rock

3:06-7:02 of this video is imo *true* nihilism which is so much more relevant b/c of how non-sentience applies. It's in

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Qg4vb-KH5F4