Please Lend Me A White Flad
I need you to let down your guard my love, please let me in. Please meet with me. Please let me in. I am anxious to explain, to be close, to connect, to have fun again. I can barely breathe. Why did I mess things up and text you again after you slipped and said you miss when we had fun and things weren'tso serious. I was doing ok. I was moving on. I need you my cutie. Why did this happen? How did we get here? Can we meet in the middle. Just stop. Let down your defenses. This is driving my heart out of my chest. I feel so anxious and vulnerable. I cant controlthe situation and so what can I do? I see you every day at work and every night when i hang out with friends. We need to figure this out so we can live andwork in peace. I cant sleep. You are always on my mind. One minute strong and the next so severely damaged, wounded, and weak. You don'trespond well to emotion so I try to play it cool. You text me yesterday and now i find myself not being strong. I keep texting you back and you aren'tresponding. I have difficulty waiting in the unknown. I need an answer. I need to know we are good and that you still love me. I need a response. Please respond. Please love me. Please have fun with me again. I am dying inside to be loved and accepted and forgiven by you. I cant sleep until you respond so please respond and give me peace. Why am i obsessed with what you think of me and obsessed with how you feel about me. Why am i obsessed with you in general. You are holding my mind captiveand i have no idea on how to escape...someone please help me unlock and break free........
I can really empathise with you on this. My ex and I broke up and he is all I ever think of from morning to night. I need to let go, but I can't. I feel like I am too soft and I should hate him, but I can't do that. If there was anything I could do to change his mind I would.
He keeps texting me telling me he wants to be friends and then tells me he has a new girlfriend. I swear that he is trying to mess with me, but I just can't help myself.
Letting go is harder than I ever thought would be.
@Nightstar, yes letting go is very hard but perhaps it's not about letting go. Rather it's about accepting and moving forward. While you had your good times and it's okay to hold on to those memories. Yetlife don't pause even for a momentsoyou must find a way to move along with it.
You mentioned that the ex keeps texting you.Do you think that his texting you is slowing the healing process?
At the time, the texting makes me feel better, but as soon as he doesn't it makes me feel worried. I'm trapped in a vicious cycle and I feel like he is playing games.
I can understand why you might feel like he is game playing. No one likes to feel like they are being played. But, if he is then maybe the question should be;how can you make it stop? No one has the right to play with your heart and emotions. Break ups hurt something terrible, but sometimes our actions justdrag out the heartache rather than allowing it to heal.
I can understand why you might feel like he is game playing. No one likes to feel like they are being played. But, if he is then maybe the question should be;how can you make it stop? No one has the right to play with your heart and emotions. Break ups hurt something terrible, but sometimes our actions justdrag out the heartache rather than allowing it to heal.
it's been almost three weeks since my ex and I broke up and it's still impossible for me to get over. at first i somewhat just decided I need a rebound guy and really put myself out there trying to find someone but my anxiety stopped me. one guy who seemed super sweet just wanted to have lunch and I've met him before and I ended up telling him I was sick because I knew I wouldn't be able to deal with seeing another guy. so since then, (I dealwith anorexia, anxiety and depression) it's all gotten worse. I've just stopped eating and everything I do makes me sad. agoraphobia has taken over and im so scared to go to social places just in case I see another couple happy. going to school makes me cry, just seeing him daily makes me so upset and he has a new girlfriend. with me, he was not a fan of pda but with her, they're all over each other everywhere. relationships change people, but it's not the end of the world. you'll be able to handle it
