What is on your mind? (Diary Entry Rant...)

What is on my mind?

Too much.

Im thinking about how in Gods name am I supposed to pay for an expensive holiday that I dont even want to go on? Why did my mother have to choose such an expensive destination?

Im thinking about how the message I wrote regarding store security and theft prevention ideas got torn out of the communications booklet at work.

Im also thinking about my plans to go study again for the next three years. A Bachelors Degree in Early Childhood Education.

Is it really a good for me to working with young impressional children when I feel that Im extremely unstable.

I struggled with studies last year and the year before; do I really want to put myself through that kind of crippling stress again?

I keep thinking about this guy, but I should stop thinking about him. Hes been ghosting me for several weeks so I really ought to let it go.

And I keep thinking about that stupid screw-up I made at work in August. How I practically let those thieves steal a vital piece of our store security.

The amount of unexplainable losses has gone drastically since then and its my fault. Im surprised that I havent been fired for that..

I shouldve been fired..

You know what sucks? This rant has barely scratched the surface of these loud thoughts...