Where Do I Go Now?

Now that Im banished to the forums I wanted to share my thoughts about what has been happening lately and these are the questions that I keep asking myself - maybe some of you can relate:

- Who do I talk to when I feel to guilty to keep bothering my therapist on the weekend?

- What do I now do with my time when trying to stay sober?

- Now that Ivebroken down so early in the day, who can I talk to about the guilt I have for smoking drugs when I know it can get me in a lot of trouble?

- Where do I go to not feel like a freak?

- Where can I go to truely express what I feel and think?

- Where do I go where my appearance doesnt matter?

- How can I learn to communicate and be heard when the books arent helping?

- How can I learn to fix myself if I have no one around telling me what "fixed" is?

I'll try to add more later when the thoughts become uncontrollable again.