Why am I so scared
I don't know why I'm so afraid, I think I just truly don't want to have to ever be put in a violent situation again....his silence does not help, I've been "seeing" not really seeing more, getting to know, this man, who I am very interested in, but he's so silent, and I always think the worse, I straight away think he's maybe a serial killer, or got a crazy violent temper, even though he swears blind he's a pacifist, ......I'm finding it hard to trust humans, because I know that even after so long, they can still be unpredictable at any moment..... how do you get out of this? ...... You don't! .... When the whole world has done you wrong Infront of your eyes and doesn't stop doing wrong , how do you get past this , for the sake of finding someone to share some affection with during our stay on earth.......how......you just deal with be alone I guess, deal with it, or keep trying, and hope no one kills you during your attempt of affection lol.......π€·
@Crazykindjane
Hi--I'm sorry that you went through a violent situation and just want to say that after something like that, it's really understandable to feel nervous about connecting with other people or worried that they're going to hurt you.
I imagine it's a "little by little" thing. Like, I'll give you my pinkie and if you don't bite it off, then great maybe I'll try giving you a few other fingers next. :) And sort of gradually build up intimacy with people after they've proven themselves trustworthy. Feeling like I can become vulnerable at a pace that is comfortable for me.
@frigidstars27
You're absolutely right, thankyou for understanding π ..I think sometimes to push past it but I think I've found comfort in my loneliness and safety zone... except for lonely times like these when I want someone to talk to π€· but I guess that's why I found this app hahahah ππβ€οΈππ
@frigidstars27
Also, I've steered away from this man, he doesn't give me the comfort I need , he , I believe is in the same boat as me, and I don't think we are suitable to pull eachother out of it with balance .. I could be wrong, and throwing something amazing away....but I guess it's just a risk I'm gonna take π€· ..
@Crazykindjane
It's a nice thing to feel safe and comfortable. I also really like 7Cups because it feels to me like a space where it's possible to be safe and still connect with people. As far as steering away from him, I trust your feelings and decisions; you know yourself better than anyone. :)