darkness and void
my mind & heart a dungeon devoured by the dark dragon of invincible depression. no light. no joy. no cure. crippled smothered a corpse on life support. i have succumbed all numb defeated by the darkness vanquished by the void. in a stupor all stifled stillborn stuck and sterile all is suffering in the lightless void where I limp along lost and listless in the dark where i evaporate. i am a vacuum choked in the hellish charnel cold fevered godforsaken no mirage no grail no gold i fall flat flailing all frail the light has failed i am assailed wailing from the viperous stranglehold where all is darkness and void out of nothing left with nothing my dreams mutilated incinerated devastated obliterated. dying depraved in the den of darkness and void unabated. pain-infested my mind molested i am left sorrowfully sedated in the sickness of my agonizing annihilation in this damned awakening from the delirious dream of salvation eclipsed in the darkness & void. this vacuum where the light has vanished where i am finished where i am vacated. vicious venom degrading me day by day there is no substance left as i slowly decay. Death deliver me drive me away. im a lonely leper left dead deleted depleted lying lonely in my death bed. nothing shall bless nor exalt me. strangled out of thought all dissolves into naught here out of hope in the solitude infernal. where suffering springs eternal. all is darkness & void. i am already dead let's finish the job so that i may be forever entombed in the immortal darkness and void. let me perish mercifully. lord hear my prayer. i plead from the pyre sinking in the quicksand drowning into the dregs into the frozen hellfire. the colors are drained from existence. i am darkness and void. hail mary full of grace. all is darkness and void. only say the words and i shall be healed. cure me of the darkness save me from the void. i am dying and i am already dead. on this side as on the other side there is nothing. nothing but darkness & void. let there be light. raise me from the tomb. from the lion's den. all is silent all is dark in this desperate seeking for the light here where all is darkness and void.
@hollowman84
You choose words so well; I could feel the sadness and pain from this! I'm so sorry you're struggling, and hope writing helps.
@Imogene thank you. that means a lot really. writing is my passion, so any act of doing it has some value for me. but what i truly love above all is creative story writing, which i have not felt capable of writing well for most of the last year. depression seems to have sucked me dry. it kills me. i dont know what to do about it. how to get my drive back. i try to do it all the time and nothing flows. there's just a stiff stifling deadness inside. fuck i hate it. i want to do my writing again so badly. i want to get better. im sick of this barren wasting away lonely meaningless existence.
thanks again.
@hollowman84
So sorry to hear that; it really sounds like depression's got the worse of you, and I'm sorry because I know how hard that is to struggle with. Creative storywriting sounds amazing too, and it's a shame that you don't get to do it anymore because of depression! I really hope it gets better for you.
