i hate this feeling..
Here lately, I'm not able to just push my depression aside and keep living.. Its just here all the time now. And the more I try to get better then more I get closer to giving up fully on myself. Ive lost both my parents, my grandparents, my family is fckn weird now and not close anymore since that all happened.. My best friend/soulmate is checked out since she got married and sober. My gf is constantly comparing how much better she is than me. makes more money, just got finished with her nursing school.. while im working a warehouse job, constantly looking for other jobs that i would like better. I moved states for this girl and now i just feel isolated, like this is what she wanted. Every friend i make, she has taken over down here. When I do start to feel better and start playing and singing, i get made fun of, or i asked why im just doing what im doing for fun.. Im just tired. I need someone besides Ai to talk to..
@oliveSpring7918 🙁 wow that's a lot to be dealing with🙁 no wonder your feeling so depressed😥 having no family is extremely hard, I can sympathise with you there🙁 you know I believe happiness is extremely important, and if your not happy/second guessing your choices, being made to feel inadequate to someone else. Then it's time to change things up for yourself. I know it's not just that easy though 🙁 and I really hope you start feeling better soon 💖 gives you a giant tiny hug 💗 we are all here for you 💗
@oliveSpring7918 I'm so sorry you're going through all of this. It sounds so tough. I'm so proud of you for reaching out on here for help. I want to remind you that no matter what, you are so loved, precious, and amazing. I know it's so painful but you are ABSOLUTELY strong enough to get through this, and we'll be rooting for you every step of the way.
For now, try to keep focusing on your goals (such as finding a new job/better situation) and taking small, manageable steps. Even a little progress is better than no progress. Trust that it'll get better because it WILL!
Also, remember to keep taking care of yourself and doing things you enjoy. Carve out a little bit of time each day (even just 15 minutes) for hobbies like singing. Don't mind the people that make fun of you, because if it's a meaningful hobby that gives you joy, then it's worth it no matter what they think. Personally, along with my hobbies, what has helped me is praying, journaling, naming 5 things I'm grateful for, etc.
We are all here for you always. Please don't hesitate to reach out when you need it. Stay strong and keep putting yourself out there. Sending you so much love, hugs, and prayers!! 💕
