in the wonders of my mind💗.

hey guys

I js ate kfc 😁 I love kfc. did I tell u guys that? 

I forgot to mention 

when I got woken up this morning

rlly early in the morning

to get ready cs we’re going to the thing like for the case thing idk 

I went to the bathroom to change

nd I jst sat there nd I ended up crying so hard to the point where like I couldn’t breathe I ws like hyperventilating rlly fast I wasn’t getting a chance to breathe then idk why but randomly like I couldn’t breathe nd when I say I couldn’t breathe I mean like suddenly I went quiet nd I genuinely wasn’t able to inhale nd I started like kicking nd *** it ws like I ws being chocked or smth I genuinely jst cldnt inhale 😃 nd then my heart I felt smth rlly like sharp nd painful nd bro I’m not joking I cldnt do anything I cldnt scream or talk or cry or breathe like idk anyways

im all good 👍 

my brother came nd at that point it ws a lot later like I ws in my room nd I ws doing my hair while crying then my brother came nd I jst kept crying harder nd he hugged me then my grandpa came then he hugged me too.

then later my dad came nd he’s like whys she crying nd like asking me what happened but I jst kept ignoring him nd I still like up until this point I’m still crying

nd esp when my dad came I started hyperventilating again 

yh

why am I so tired..

I woke up tday rlly rlly sick nd ws still forced to go to skl 

I ws literally being yelled at nd my head was like beating ? my ears were ringing it was jst overstimulating 

I ended up getting ready for skl rlly late nd I ws crying the whole time while getting ready 😁

bcs yk when like u let urself jst like

for example u jst let ur hair get messed up bcs u know for sure ur not having skl or anything to do the next day

like for me for example usually id like straighten the bits that got messed up from that day nd jst make sure my hair is completely straight then I put oil on my hands and spread it throughout my hair then I start putting it into heat less curls then I wrap it all with this big idek nd tie it 

then I sleep :> nd that’s when I want to sleep nd like wake up w good hair 

but bcs I ws sick nd didn’t rlly care nd I ws sure I wouldn’t have skl I didn’t do any of that

nd I jst looked like *** in general

don’t ask me how but somehow

somehow

 I managed

i did my makeup at skl like in the changing rooms during lead time cs idrc abt being in lead nd my friend ws w me 

I was a tiny bit late to first period but when I tell u the teacher didn’t even look at me when I walked in 💀 she didn’t even notice   

my makeup looked so good tday

idek how I managed to do my hair but it looked good tday too but like by the time it got to like the middle of the day I had to tie it up 

It still looked good tho 

one more week of term 2 😀😀

im like rlly tired 

bye guys

hey guys guess what

my grandma also got hurt rlly rlly bad and jst got surgery rn!!

I haven’t gone into details abt my grandpa nd I’m not going to abt my grandma either 

but it’s like pretty bad 😁

anyways

I’ve had plans with this one girl for like a month now 

nd insha allah if everything goes as planned we will finally fulfill them on Friday 😁😁 and if it doesn’t work then that’s literally it cs we have like a month break after that and no we can’t make plans then 

smth funny happened tday

i ws in the bathroom w my friend jst like touching up nd looking at myself in the mirror making sure I look okay nd seeing if there’s anything I need to fix yk so wtv then I don’t remember what we were talking abt but my friend goes oh wait I’ve been wanting to ask this for a while nd I’m like yeah nd she’s like I’ve been wanting to ask this for a while but like do you have like- a mother?

I started laughing so hard 💀 like no bro I ws birthed by apes

actually no my dad had me

like ofcourse I have a mother man everyone has a mother 😭 

nd she ws laughing too nd she was like no no I mean like in the household 

nd I’m like u phrased that so bad tho (as a joke she literally started laughing)

then I’m like but yeah in the household no

nd she’s like yeah bcs like ur only ever talking abt ur dad nd youve never mentioned ur mom 

nd yadayadadavshsjajwnw 

that’s crazy tho thats smth I prolly wldnt ever be able to like notice

also now that I’m thinking abt it she only ever talks abt her mom too like do u have a father 💀 

bajajajajhahaha imma ask her that 

anyways 

im hungry

im gnna get a croissant :3

…😀

so like

i had a friend on here

nd 

we talked like

every single minute of every single day im not even exaggerating (on here btw never outside of cups)

like we spent all night till the morning talking we pulled so many all nighters in a row jst talking then there were only the smallest amount of times throughout the day where we'd have to stop talking for a couple of minutes like we'd have to go brb then like 2 minutes later we're back nd talking again 

the longest time we'd go without talking is like 10 minutes if i take longer to get up nd get ready for skl nd come back cs at the time i didnt even do anything i jst threw my skl uniform on nd talked to this guy all the time that i had 

like i didnt need to wake up nd start talking bcs we've already been talking nonstop for the past like 6 days all day all night 

even when im in skl in class even when i ws having a test like not even done yet jst the test is infront of me but i didnt give a *** abt anything but cups at the time like i alr told u guys i ws addicted to being on here

i ws addicted to being on here but this friend i feel like they played the biggest role 

because when id be pulling all nighters nd like not getting any sleep nd stuff

its not like im going onto forums or smth no im jst talking to this guy the whole time in this one chatroom jst the whole time

so yh u get it wtv

nd then one day

he jst

poofs.

well

stuff happened before that. 

then he poofs

cant find his acc can’t find anything

stuff happened before that

we started talking a lot less

then he poofed 

nd

when i went in those chatrooms yesterday (I hope that’s what they’re called I swr I don’t remember 😭) 

I didn’t see his name joining but someone went hi (his name)

nd his name was kind of like a normal name nd then smth extra so I’m like maybe it’s a nickname for that guy

but the same person also welcomed in someone with that name with jst that then they started talking

this doesn’t make sense

 💀 

if ur a teen that ws at least kinda active at that time u prolly know who I’m talking abt? 

cs even if u came on here like twice a month u know every time u checked i ws jst in that Chatroom talking to that one person 

but yh so

I’m not sure

it might not be him

but

i jst realized I completely completely forgot abt that

forgot abt him everything

like 

I didn’t think at the time that i cld move forward after that 

thats crazy

anyways

how many calories are in one piece of fried chicken from kfc 💀 

im so hungry 😭 

I’ve been craving vanilla ice cream for like 2 weeks now 

i have no idea why 

I’m so excited to go out w my friend tho

I got a big amount of money cs i went to this event thing nd well it’s a long story but 

I’m so excited to spend it

im gnna spoil myself nd her

i love spoiling my friends 

nd myself 😁 no I’m joking 

it’s jst I’ve never had money nd my dad not take it

probably because he doesn’t even know i have it

bur like think abt it what am i supposed to do tell him 💀 he’ll jst take it nd spend it on sex toys or smth 

srry

anyways 

idek how expensive those are

i dont really want to know 

considering how things that are worse for our society are often cheaper 😀 actually nvm I’m thinking abt food

bro bcs fast food nd unhealthy snacks r so cheap

I’m craving

eggs 

but

im thinking

if i get up nd make eggs

my dad might wake up

to the sound of the microwave 

it’s not even loud btw my dads jst like that

nd

i don’t want to see my dad

like i want to have more time to jst be awake

without my dad  

i *** hate it when my dads there

id rather have him go out nd *** all the *** he wants I don’t wanna see him 

like lie abt where ur going bro idc 

anyways

im so hungryryryryryyy 

I’m also at 2% nd can’t access a charger 😁 (I’m lazy) 

so

the only reasonable solution

oh *** 1%

okay byee<33

(dw guys I’m getting up I’ll jst go make food nd let my phone charge 😔)