isa’s second safe space
For the past few days, I’ve been okay. Time hasn’t slowed down. Every day is similar and it’s going too fast. Fun, happy times pass me yet I still feel like a huge part of me is missing.
Right now, I’m sad that I can’t be little anymore. I wish I could play with my old dolls undisturbed right now. Lalaloopsies. I want them with me, but I don’t know where they are.
School isn’t that hard right now. I have friends. I think they really like me. I like them lots. But why do I feel like I’m unable to enjoy anything? This is a weird feeling and I hate it. I can’t stop. I think they count as instrusive thoughts. I feel like I’m nowhere. I feel disconnected from everything. I feel too different, my way of thinking. I don’t like it. I want to be carefree. I want people to like me so that I can feel safe and have lots of friends. I don’t want to look dirty, silent, or empty. This is weird. It’s bad. I am so tired, but I haven’t done anything. There’s lots I want to do. I don’t know how to wake up and join the present. Help! Help!
I don’t actually know what I need in the first place.
Hey @quietsailboats , its sounds like you are really struggling currently, *offers huge hugs*. I hear you; it seems like your emotions are overwhelming and you are unsure how to feel. I don’t see you as dirty or silent, I see a really strong individual who I’m deeply proud of for reaching out for support. I really hope you are able to feel connected with you surroundings soon and are able to find the support you are after here at 7cups.
Do you think it would help if you made a list of things you would like to achieve? A way to organise your mind and bring things back to the present.
