toxic 2

once again i look like the bad guy , a simple misunderstanding and lack of communication can cause people to see you so different than you actually are. I bet if people took the time out to know me and talk to me and see what i have to offer they would like me .. that goes for everybody not just my family.

but my family , i don't think they will ever know me like ive wanted them too .. i dont think theyll ever know how beautiful of a daughter, a sister i could've actually been if they loved me . i mean really loved me in they ways i always needed. emotional abuse is a real thing , yeah I'm blessed to not get physically abused but is that suppose to make it feel any less hurtful ?

walking on eggshells living here, moving out isnt an option. nobody to talk to, i just bury myself in loving myself and maybe that's why they call me selfish.

i don't think i was ever taught to love anyone other than myself