uncertain

@SunElixir

I don't deserve to be happy and content. I don't deserve to feel grounded and secure. I feel defeated. What's the point of trying if this is how it should be?

Hi there!

I am Hanna and i wanted to tell you that i totally relate the whole thing. the whole thing you said except for the "2 years" part. i thought i knew where i was going until this lockdown. Lockdown made me question everything happening right now. i too feel the overwhelming sense of uncertainity. i have absolutely no idea what i am going to do after the lockdown. should i continue what i am doing or will i choose my happiness over my mom's dream? i have absolutely no idea. i dont even know what i want anymore. i dont know how this happen but i have been asking myself the same questions.

however i dont believe that this is how life is supposed to be all the time. this is a bad phase, everyone, every-single-one have bad phase in their life, for some it stays for one or two months, sometimes an years or two, and at time it even stays for around or more than five years.

existence of bad days in our lives doesnt mean that we dont deserve to be happy, this is just a process, where we question ourselves, we go through who we are, we will learn many things, we will try to fix things and eventually one day, things start getting better. some people say that they do not believe in "it will get better's" but i do, because i "know" one day, sooner or later it will be better because change is the only constant thing in life.

*sends lots of hugs and cookies*

i hope you will feel better soon <3

Lot of Love

~ Hanna