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Dream about fear of losing control or something else?

I had the same dream three times. It was a dream where I was sitting at the computer and ended up clicking on something and after that creepy images and videos started to pop up, and I was unplugging the computer from the socket but three times it was different, once, when scary and creepy images and videos started to pop up, I unplugged the computer, it turned off and I was feeling nothing. But then it glitched and I felt a little bit scared but then it turned off. Second time, I did the same, I unplugged the computer but then it didn't turn off and I was scared and I paniced even but then I quickly focused on something else, third time, I did the same, but it didn't work and I can as scared and I panic even more then before, I tried to unplug everything that was going from computer (the plugs, the other stuff and etc.) and it didn't work and it kept going and i was really scared and in panic.

So, it's in short, if in details it was like this.

First time the story didn't continue because I forgot irni woken up.

Second time

I already said about the computer so then what happened, some guy appeared and told about some camping stuff or something like that and told me that we need to catch owls in the circle that he drawed, or I said that, I don't remember. So, he told me that we need to go to that circle and all the owls where really big, but ine owl was big like a bear or even a T-Rex. And I was really scared and disgusted even about that owl, and all the owls.where the same, their faces looked like a character from cartoon "night guardians" and that cartoon was about owls, and they were in light golden brown color, and then the dinosaur that was really big, bigger then that one owl and it looked like bird, it was mix of flamingo and that one bird who can make sounds of w*r and it had a really dark fathers, and it bited that owls neck, and then that owl almost fall but I catched it by the neck, and then, that one guy said "run, run somewhere" and I said "where? Where to run?" And I looked to another direction and let go of that owl and runed away, before I runned away, I felt so scared that it might bite me or fall on me, and I felt really uncanny feeling... Like... Helplessness but wilth fear and it felt really uncanny... So, I runned away and realized that I was at my grandma's room in our apartment where I and my grandma live, and I run to the balcony falling on the ground but getting up and running away, I closed the door and the door has a glass in there and that one guys voice said ",be careful, it might break the glass" and it did and then I said "You know what?" And wanted to grab something but then I saw an axe and grabbed it, then I opened the door, and started hitting that bird who was dinasour, but then it turned out to be an African person who I was hitting with an axe and didn't stop. Then, I stopped because my grandma called me, then I ended up with that one guy and we started to talk about LGBTQIA+ community and he said that he supports that but I didn't hear him but then I figured out what he said and I said "so, you support - and I did this: 𫳠with my hand and said: mm?"

And he was like "what? What do you mean?" And I laughed and said "I mean, you support LGBTQIA+ community?" And he said yes and I was like "And Aroace people?" (I'm Aroace by the way hah) And he said yes. And I was really happy and said that finally I found a person who where sane and cool. Then I don't remember what happened.

Third time

It happened again with the computer but after I unplugged the plug, I felt so scared and I was in panic, like really bad panic and I started to unplug everything that was connected to the computer and I was in such rush, and I started to clicking on button that need to turn off computer fast but it didn't work and the pictures and videos where going on and on and on and then I ended up with my parents and then tornado started and I was talking about the tornado that was coming to us but I don't remember what happened before that... So, me and my mom got to other side and it didn't catch us and didn't catch my dad or it did? I don't know, but then I woke up.

And I'm thinking, maybe it was a dream of being scared of losing control over something that I have anxiety of (I was scared that fantasies came back when I talked to myself and doomscrolled on Pinterest. I got rid of maladaptive daydreaming disorder and now I'm fine, but when I have anxiety over something, I start talking to myself and going on the phone and it triggers my anxiety about the fantasies, or when thoughts about the characters or something else goes by it triggers my anxiety about the fantasies) so maybe it's about that and the more I try to control, the more anxiety comes. Or maybe it's about me making mistake over and over again? Like, maybe it's about going on the phone and talking to myself over and over again? And the more I do it, the more anxiety comes or something else. So, I don't know, maybe it's about control and I feel it more about control because in that dreams I was really scared when the computer did the things that I talked about and i was panicking really hard. So, what is it? Is it about losing control about the situation that I told about or something else?

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Amanda84 July 10th

@affectionateOwl4692

Yes.

I think it would help your anxiety to not rerun these fantasies through your mind all the time.

It's exhausting.

It's triggering and it's keeping you stuck in an endless loop 🩷