Eva’s Crazy Mind
i’ve wanted to make a forum post like that for quite a while now, but never brought myself to actually make it. here i will write up all sorts of thoughts and vents, everything i need to get off my mind. it’s not gonna be positive or motivational, not even close. i personally don’t recommend reading it just because it doesn’t help lol. you’re welcome to read, replies are okay, just be aware that it’s gonna be a pretty dark place. i don’t usually ask for help despite telling everybody to. idk why. i’m not a very good example of what’s right to do. TW just in case, not planning to go that far but who knows.
i’m making myself this space because sometimes you can feel lonely while being surrounded by a million people and that’s nobody’s fault.
best wishes to you. ❤️
yeahh the “reality” hit now. cool.
gonna start with the assignments.
“i’m giving so many signs aren’t you watching?”
those 4 songs are.. yeah. make me feel something. something close to.. hope? but like.. they’re not about anything positive. they’re about uh.. leaving, instead. but they comfort. can’t explain it but.. they take some of the feeling of being all alone away.
funny thing is, some songs are like.. triggering, but comforting at the same time. like you don’t even wanna turn it off, even tho it’s like- bad. lol idk.
and as you see, 40 minutes later, i still haven’t started. literally considering giving up atp lol. on everything.
deep down, i think i might have already given up. just not my whole self accepts that yet.
i used to have so many dreams. so many plans. so many wishes.
now i only have one.
“just one more day”, i tell myself, every day.
