Eva’s Crazy Mind
i’ve wanted to make a forum post like that for quite a while now, but never brought myself to actually make it. here i will write up all sorts of thoughts and vents, everything i need to get off my mind. it’s not gonna be positive or motivational, not even close. i personally don’t recommend reading it just because it doesn’t help lol. you’re welcome to read, replies are okay, just be aware that it’s gonna be a pretty dark place. i don’t usually ask for help despite telling everybody to. idk why. i’m not a very good example of what’s right to do. TW just in case, not planning to go that far but who knows.
i’m making myself this space because sometimes you can feel lonely while being surrounded by a million people and that’s nobody’s fault.
best wishes to you. ❤️
tw.
today, that one certain thing was taking over my mind more than it ever has before.
possible tw.
here’s what i want to do. i want to have my own place, with no family or people around. just do my *** by myself. no school. no necessary interaction with anyone. i want to say the things i need to say and do the things i need to do. it would be quiet, dark, and lonely, but it’s comforting, so it’s okay. i would do a couple of things for the world, for the ones struggling, so many ideas and thoughts and things i have i could share with the world. and then, i’d leave.
but i’m stuck in this reality. so i don’t know what i’m gonna do.
7 unfinished assignments. and i don’t even really care to fix them anymore.
guess i’ve really just given up.
tw.
my mom seems to have a clear plan for my future. i have one too, but it doesn’t involve a future.
it’s all just so heavy.
tw.
counting days, counting days..
we’ve lost so many people.
so many..
don’t cry don’t cry don’t cry..