Eva’s Crazy Mind
i’ve wanted to make a forum post like that for quite a while now, but never brought myself to actually make it. here i will write up all sorts of thoughts and vents, everything i need to get off my mind. it’s not gonna be positive or motivational, not even close. i personally don’t recommend reading it just because it doesn’t help lol. you’re welcome to read, replies are okay, just be aware that it’s gonna be a pretty dark place. i don’t usually ask for help despite telling everybody to. idk why. i’m not a very good example of what’s right to do. TW just in case, not planning to go that far but who knows.
i’m making myself this space because sometimes you can feel lonely while being surrounded by a million people and that’s nobody’s fault.
best wishes to you. ❤️
wow great job eva.
@justmeeva u oki love?
@unassumingEyes
yeah sure
@justmeeva hope thats true…but its okay if ur not 🥺 * sits with you * 🪑
*sits in a corner alone*
@justmeeva *sits on the side quietly* lmk if you want some more space
“i recognise this pattern.”
@justmeeva eva buddy ok?
@unassumingEyes
not exactly but ik you’re not either and i can’t make you deal with me while having to deal with yourself at the same time so i’m fine.
flashbacks, memories, thoughts.
*** *** ***.
@justmeeva
*sits with you* :')
@LoveMyMoonflowers
*sits*
the fact that deep breathing doesn’t even help when i’m trying to hold back tears because to my brain it’s just a sign that we doing bad that we need to put effort into being okay lol. not a single thing that’s right about me.
@justmeeva I love you (as friends). Sorry i cnt support. Hugs if okay
@unassumingEyes
i don’t blame you. thank you still. *hugs*
“i almost wish we never met.”
it’s not gonna get better, is it.
i’m kind of considering just shutting up for a good while.
i genuinely don’t know what to do anymore.
i’m sick of constantly being at this point where i can’t be sure if i’m gonna see you tomorrow.
