Eva’s Crazy Mind
i’ve wanted to make a forum post like that for quite a while now, but never brought myself to actually make it. here i will write up all sorts of thoughts and vents, everything i need to get off my mind. it’s not gonna be positive or motivational, not even close. i personally don’t recommend reading it just because it doesn’t help lol. you’re welcome to read, replies are okay, just be aware that it’s gonna be a pretty dark place. i don’t usually ask for help despite telling everybody to. idk why. i’m not a very good example of what’s right to do. TW just in case, not planning to go that far but who knows.
i’m making myself this space because sometimes you can feel lonely while being surrounded by a million people and that’s nobody’s fault.
best wishes to you. ❤️
first “i was such a good kid to my parents why can’t my kids be like that”.
whenever i happen to try to talk about my feelings, she just thinks i wanna argue and eventually turns it so i seem the bad person by saying i make her feel like the bad person. ***- shut up. just shut the *** up.
the ones that understand that my “i’m fine” doesn’t mean i’m okay <3
kinda wish i could fake my death just to see how different people would react lmao
but like not in a selfish way like genuinely who’d care ykwim
@justmeeva
…i would care. :') and i really would…
there was one time you left for a while and the way… your posts… in this diary thread, i thought… you… mmm. :') i thought you did it.
and i thought about it for days and would just start crying every time i thought about it. seriously… :')
…ni friend needs eva. and me don’t wanna lose you friend…
and ik that sounds selfish and :') idk. idk, nothing i’m saying makes sense but yeah. i wanted to tell you that for a while… so… yeah.
:')
@LoveMyMoonflowers
i believe you. i know you care. and you’re not selfish. but.. i’m still here right now, it’s okay 🩷
@justmeeva
… hugs if okay.
@LoveMyMoonflowers
*hugs you tight*
@justmeeva
💜
@justmeeva i…have almost done that.
@unassumingEyes
i believe you. 🩷 *hugs if okay*
@justmeeva *hugs*
almost had a tiny breakdown twice but had to press those tears down cause i’m not alone rn <33
kinda tempting ngl
right right we can try distracting before we go there rightt
nvm lmao *** this ***
it don’t matter anyway might aswell js do it
you really have changed haven’t you eva