Eva’s Crazy Mind
i’ve wanted to make a forum post like that for quite a while now, but never brought myself to actually make it. here i will write up all sorts of thoughts and vents, everything i need to get off my mind. it’s not gonna be positive or motivational, not even close. i personally don’t recommend reading it just because it doesn’t help lol. you’re welcome to read, replies are okay, just be aware that it’s gonna be a pretty dark place. i don’t usually ask for help despite telling everybody to. idk why. i’m not a very good example of what’s right to do. TW just in case, not planning to go that far but who knows.
i’m making myself this space because sometimes you can feel lonely while being surrounded by a million people and that’s nobody’s fault.
best wishes to you. ❤️
i can’t even think about anything that could help me. i’m just so *** up.
i’m not even kidding, i’m starting to doubt if i will ever be better.
i’m *** insane.
of course when i don’t have the energy to hide my emotions anymore, my mom’s gonna play a victim and pretend as if i had blamed her for everything, when she had no *** idea what’s all going on inside my head. l.m.a.o.
but it’s fine. everything’s fine. i’m fine.
i guess that’s just what i deserve.
enough is enough.
i know you kinda left a long time ago but my stupid attached self still prays that it’s you every time i get a message.
i’m kinda slowly starting to think about leaving.
@justmeeva me glad ur still here… *sits with you*
@justmeeva
leaving cupsies…? 🥺
@LoveMyMoonflowers
yes? no? i don’t know. i don’t think i ever could but sometimes…
@justmeeva
its okie to take breaks but please don’t leave… 🥺 you’d be so missed
@LoveMyMoonflowers
i won’t, i might just.. shut up for some time. soon.
@justmeeva you dont have to "shut up" as you say but if u ever take a break we'll wait for you 🥺
@unassumingEyes i wouldn’t.
thank you.
@justmeeva
you would be missed. ni would miss you :’)
@LoveMyMoonflowers
i won’t leave you, i promise 🩷. i’m just a *** of a mess which makes the voices just take over and i say and think the most depressing ***. i’m sorry.
brain: change change change change
heart: i’m trying i’m trying i’m trying i’m trying