Eva’s Crazy Mind
i’ve wanted to make a forum post like that for quite a while now, but never brought myself to actually make it. here i will write up all sorts of thoughts and vents, everything i need to get off my mind. it’s not gonna be positive or motivational, not even close. i personally don’t recommend reading it just because it doesn’t help lol. you’re welcome to read, replies are okay, just be aware that it’s gonna be a pretty dark place. i don’t usually ask for help despite telling everybody to. idk why. i’m not a very good example of what’s right to do. TW just in case, not planning to go that far but who knows.
i’m making myself this space because sometimes you can feel lonely while being surrounded by a million people and that’s nobody’s fault.
best wishes to you. ❤️
she found out.
she asked me why i was wearing those hand warmer/sleeve things and the she said “please tell me you’re not copying this popular self pity thing”.
there was no concern
there was no- sadness
it was just disappointment.
she basically said that i do this for attention and so that people would feel bad for me
i told her not to tell anyone
she said she won’t tell anyone if i stop doing it
i can’t make it a promise
she had all this pointless talk during which i just wanted to shout “shut up and leave me alone”
she said that i’m just doing this to myself, that i’m just choosing to view life from this negative perspective, that i just make everything worse in my head
idk what she’s gonna do now that she knows