Eva’s Crazy Mind
i’ve wanted to make a forum post like that for quite a while now, but never brought myself to actually make it. here i will write up all sorts of thoughts and vents, everything i need to get off my mind. it’s not gonna be positive or motivational, not even close. i personally don’t recommend reading it just because it doesn’t help lol. you’re welcome to read, replies are okay, just be aware that it’s gonna be a pretty dark place. i don’t usually ask for help despite telling everybody to. idk why. i’m not a very good example of what’s right to do. TW just in case, not planning to go that far but who knows.
i’m making myself this space because sometimes you can feel lonely while being surrounded by a million people and that’s nobody’s fault.
best wishes to you. ❤️
“the ways in which you talk to me
have me wishing i were gone.”
which reminds me.. of something i don’t wanna remember or think about rn so nvm (:
i’m okay rn btw (well, or at least not not okay), i’ll just throw some random thoughts here lol.
absolute nonsense:
i feel weird. but like the emotion kind of feeling not the physical kind of feeling but it also kinda is a physical feeling but it’s like emotionally affecting the physical feeling you know? (don’t lie no you don’t lol /lh even i don’t)
like it’s not a physical feeling but i can feel it physically.
okay one really weird thing about me is that if i watch like a movie or a video or smt like that, i literally like adopt the mood and the personality and the way they talk. i- idk how to explain it but uh yeah that’s what we have going on right now
@justmeeva
we can be weird together. 💜 i've always had this exact same thing :P seriously, not kidding at all.
@LoveMyMoonflowers
i’m sorry i literally- have no words other than the different types of “*hugs*” and emojis (and they’re not even words-)- all vocabulary just flew out of the window
@justmeeva
*big hugs*
twinsies :p 💜
@LoveMyMoonflowers
*hugsss* that i can do :p
@justmeeva
ugh the heart limit is so annoying so… i’m just gonna…
💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜
@LoveMyMoonflowers
ikr like what are we supposed to do, write “*(username) upvoted your post*” under everything or?? smhh
@justmeeva
ikr 😭😭😭
(i’m sorry if this made eva friend uncomfy or anything)
@LoveMyMoonflowers
no no the opposite actually don’t worry
@justmeeva
mhm 💜 i’m sorry, i posted that right before i saw your reply lol
nvm 😅🥺
@justmeeva i do that with books. Suddenly im speaking the same way as a character in the books! And my sis looks at me all weird xD
when did communication in every way become so- impossible to do?
i hate this place so much.
i think that if they come to me to ask why i’m not outside yet, i’ll have to hold back tears when i speak cause that’s the way i am.
i’m so cold.
i hate everything about the situation i’m in right now. so many people around me (especially the type i need to avoid), a completely unfamiliar place - i was lost because i have no idea how to- go anywhere- around here- and idk what i’d do if my mom didn’t help me a bit, i hate this so much.
and the teacher. if it were another teacher she would’ve made sure everyone got home and knew how to do that. but not that one. i’m just- doing something. going somewhere. waiting for a bus at the hopefully correct stop.
