Eva’s Crazy Mind
i’ve wanted to make a forum post like that for quite a while now, but never brought myself to actually make it. here i will write up all sorts of thoughts and vents, everything i need to get off my mind. it’s not gonna be positive or motivational, not even close. i personally don’t recommend reading it just because it doesn’t help lol. you’re welcome to read, replies are okay, just be aware that it’s gonna be a pretty dark place. i don’t usually ask for help despite telling everybody to. idk why. i’m not a very good example of what’s right to do. TW just in case, not planning to go that far but who knows.
i’m making myself this space because sometimes you can feel lonely while being surrounded by a million people and that’s nobody’s fault.
best wishes to you. ❤️
i guess you could say i made a deal with depression. that it would comfort me and be there with it’s familiar presence, and in return, i’ll let it win.
“together until the end” hehe. :’)
and that’s okay.
(tw.)
mean but fair enough thoughts:
i’m not traumatised enough
i’m not struggling enough to struggle
i smile and laugh too much for someone who’s supposedly at the lowest point of her life
“i’m scared..
it feels like you don’t care”
one thing’s for sure. i won’t get into any new people’s lives. and i’m not letting any new people into mine either. whether on cups or irl. it’s pointless now. i have nothing to give and nothing i want to take. besides, what’s the use for someone who’ll leave just like that anyway? the less people know, the better. it’s easier that way.
@justmeeva
...💗 i love you.. i hope you're alright <3 *hugs if okei*
@yyeyiiLy
*hugs you back* <3
…
that’s- just not possible.
you’re *** with me right
i-
the *** is the chance that right after posting that, i get tagged to reconnect with someone. i barely know them.