Eva’s Crazy Mind
i’ve wanted to make a forum post like that for quite a while now, but never brought myself to actually make it. here i will write up all sorts of thoughts and vents, everything i need to get off my mind. it’s not gonna be positive or motivational, not even close. i personally don’t recommend reading it just because it doesn’t help lol. you’re welcome to read, replies are okay, just be aware that it’s gonna be a pretty dark place. i don’t usually ask for help despite telling everybody to. idk why. i’m not a very good example of what’s right to do. TW just in case, not planning to go that far but who knows.
i’m making myself this space because sometimes you can feel lonely while being surrounded by a million people and that’s nobody’s fault.
best wishes to you. ❤️
i don’t really understand how nobody shows even a tiny bit of care or concern. if someone’s been having this kind of dead look to them for quite a long time now, like- what goes through their minds? i don’t understand. i would’ve noticed.
and in case it sounds like i’m “seeking attention” or something, no. if you knew me, you’d know that i absolutely hate attention. it’s not seeking attention it’s seeking help. somewhat at least. silently.
self hatred and self consciousness is just massive right now
a random stranger joined me at the swings for a moment lol. luckily didn’t say anything.
tw.
they talked about s*****e.
how they’re so tired of school.
tw.
the most painful way to yk.
they have no idea.
they just casually joked about su.
i don’t wanna be here i don’t wanna be here i don’t wanna be here
