Eva’s Crazy Mind
i’ve wanted to make a forum post like that for quite a while now, but never brought myself to actually make it. here i will write up all sorts of thoughts and vents, everything i need to get off my mind. it’s not gonna be positive or motivational, not even close. i personally don’t recommend reading it just because it doesn’t help lol. you’re welcome to read, replies are okay, just be aware that it’s gonna be a pretty dark place. i don’t usually ask for help despite telling everybody to. idk why. i’m not a very good example of what’s right to do. TW just in case, not planning to go that far but who knows.
i’m making myself this space because sometimes you can feel lonely while being surrounded by a million people and that’s nobody’s fault.
best wishes to you. ❤️
gtg to class.
so. tired.
there’s this scenario in my head. that we’re sitting on my bed, my mom helping me with my homework on my laptop, and then i click at a wrong place and either my spotify playlist or youtube something pops up. the look on her face. that *** look. it’s haunting me. that’s exactly how she would react irl. and then i notice and realise and shut down my laptop.
it’s replaying in my head over and over again.
i know that there’s only like 3-4 weeks left of school but it still seems so much and i still have a ton of overdue assignments to work on and i’m still exhausted.
“you don’t understand and i don’t know how to explain.”
ok this has been happening so often lately. i look at the time, then a bit of time goes by, and it’s that time again? is my memory that bad? did i look at it wrong? what’s going on-
also did i mention how exhausted i am :D
i could talk about the conversations and interactions with mom today but i’m too tired to and atp it’s all the same ***
“list five things you love about yourself”
1. uhm
2. so-
3. there’s
4. uh..
5. nothing.
i think i might stay 14 forever