Eva’s Crazy Mind
i’ve wanted to make a forum post like that for quite a while now, but never brought myself to actually make it. here i will write up all sorts of thoughts and vents, everything i need to get off my mind. it’s not gonna be positive or motivational, not even close. i personally don’t recommend reading it just because it doesn’t help lol. you’re welcome to read, replies are okay, just be aware that it’s gonna be a pretty dark place. i don’t usually ask for help despite telling everybody to. idk why. i’m not a very good example of what’s right to do. TW just in case, not planning to go that far but who knows.
i’m making myself this space because sometimes you can feel lonely while being surrounded by a million people and that’s nobody’s fault.
best wishes to you. ❤️
but of course she doesn’t know that. she doesn’t understand it at all.
remembering the time when if someone asked “how are you” i could genuinely say “i’m good”.
she just said i don’t express enough love to her. i’m sorry, am i supposed to love you?
it’s gonna be up to 25°C (77°F) on friday. sunny. we have to be outside, on the stadium, in the sun, managing a sport’s day for the rest of the school, from 8:15am to 3-4pm, depending on how long we'll take to clean the stadium up.
idk what i’m gonna do. we have t-shirts that we have to wear but uh my arms. and 25°C.
i’m just f***ed.
tw?
that one corner in my math notebook <3 (quality go poof)
i don’t understand how some people just have no sense of guilt- like when i do something wrong or something awkward happens, it’s gonna consume me alive and haunt me for days sometimes weeks and it’ll become a *** core memory. i-
ohh the way i lied to my dad.
we were walking outside.
dad: “so how are you doing in school?”
me: “good”
dad: “managing to do everything in time and all?”
me: “yeah”
😬😬😬