Eva’s Crazy Mind
i’ve wanted to make a forum post like that for quite a while now, but never brought myself to actually make it. here i will write up all sorts of thoughts and vents, everything i need to get off my mind. it’s not gonna be positive or motivational, not even close. i personally don’t recommend reading it just because it doesn’t help lol. you’re welcome to read, replies are okay, just be aware that it’s gonna be a pretty dark place. i don’t usually ask for help despite telling everybody to. idk why. i’m not a very good example of what’s right to do. TW just in case, not planning to go that far but who knows.
i’m making myself this space because sometimes you can feel lonely while being surrounded by a million people and that’s nobody’s fault.
best wishes to you. ❤️
had another “talk” with mom.
i’m so *** tired man.
it was so *** draining.
shortly:
she got mad that i didn’t want to go to the beach with them. she said “we’re not going without you” but then my sister and brother got mad bc they wanted to go (i never said they can’t because of me) and eventually she took away my laptop and phone, she would’ve taken them to the *** beach with her, she came back to my room and i managed to speak up and then it started raining and she told my siblings “glad we didn’t go, we would’ve been soaked by the rain” (l m f a o.) and then we “talked”, eventually she left and i cried until i fell asleep bc *** was exhausting and now she’s playing kind again.
so yeah i wanna d!e. (:
but what’s new about that.
i’m so sick of myself.
of being me.
of everything about me.
*sigh*