Eva’s Crazy Mind
i’ve wanted to make a forum post like that for quite a while now, but never brought myself to actually make it. here i will write up all sorts of thoughts and vents, everything i need to get off my mind. it’s not gonna be positive or motivational, not even close. i personally don’t recommend reading it just because it doesn’t help lol. you’re welcome to read, replies are okay, just be aware that it’s gonna be a pretty dark place. i don’t usually ask for help despite telling everybody to. idk why. i’m not a very good example of what’s right to do. TW just in case, not planning to go that far but who knows.
i’m making myself this space because sometimes you can feel lonely while being surrounded by a million people and that’s nobody’s fault.
best wishes to you. ❤️
i’m gonna snap. i’m gonna *** snap.
that object looking real *** tempting right now.
it’s not trust you need to be afraid of. it’s attachment that’ll get you hurt.
though trust can be the beginning of attachment.
half an hour until the mom-teacher-me meeting. i- don’t even want to think about it.
that uncomfortable anxious feeling.
here goes nothing (fidgeting my heart out on that ring)
i cried.
i tried so hard not to but then they asked if i knew what i wanted to do after 9th and i wanted to say “die” but of course i couldn’t and then i broke and i just cried
and then i apologised with a really *** shaky voice and laughed at it which didn’t help