Eva’s Crazy Mind
i’ve wanted to make a forum post like that for quite a while now, but never brought myself to actually make it. here i will write up all sorts of thoughts and vents, everything i need to get off my mind. it’s not gonna be positive or motivational, not even close. i personally don’t recommend reading it just because it doesn’t help lol. you’re welcome to read, replies are okay, just be aware that it’s gonna be a pretty dark place. i don’t usually ask for help despite telling everybody to. idk why. i’m not a very good example of what’s right to do. TW just in case, not planning to go that far but who knows.
i’m making myself this space because sometimes you can feel lonely while being surrounded by a million people and that’s nobody’s fault.
best wishes to you. ❤️
i tried so hard not to cry, fidgeting with my ring, pushing my nails in my skin, any distraction possible but nothing helped
i tried not to listen whenever they mentioned 9th grade or my future but that’s all it was about
god i’m so stupid
this entire thing is so *** stupid
can’t *** wait to die
it’s heavy.
and i’m exhausted.
so close to collapsing.
at night, in the dark room, i always feel like someone’s watching me. like someone would open the door as soon as i look away. we won’t even talk about the windows.
