Eva’s Crazy Mind
i’ve wanted to make a forum post like that for quite a while now, but never brought myself to actually make it. here i will write up all sorts of thoughts and vents, everything i need to get off my mind. it’s not gonna be positive or motivational, not even close. i personally don’t recommend reading it just because it doesn’t help lol. you’re welcome to read, replies are okay, just be aware that it’s gonna be a pretty dark place. i don’t usually ask for help despite telling everybody to. idk why. i’m not a very good example of what’s right to do. TW just in case, not planning to go that far but who knows.
i’m making myself this space because sometimes you can feel lonely while being surrounded by a million people and that’s nobody’s fault.
best wishes to you. ❤️
i’ve been having.. thoughts lately. a certain type of thoughts. i hope thoughts are the most they’ll be.
@justmeeva *sits with eva*
@justmeeva @unassumingEyes
*sits with eva and eyes* <3
i like my music so loud it almost scares me. that way i can feel something at least.
reposting something because that’s the mood tonight (and many nights before and ahead)
“i *** hate it when things don’t hit the same after some time anymore. songs, videos, messages, whatever. why does life keep finding *** to take from me? why does life not want me to be happy? am i really that unworthy?“
think eva think
funny, it’s usually the exact opposite lol.
…
that absolutely did not help.
in fact, might’ve made things worse.
this is so sad tbh.
no come *** on you can’t do the losing touch with reality thing right now eva you gotta be here you have to
@justmeeva *sits with u* 🪑 sending love frnd <3
0 feeling of sadness. 0 feeling of happiness. 0 feeling of excitement. 0 feeling of pain. 0 feeling of anything. 0 feeling at all. - not here.
. . .
my mind can not take this.
i was pretty convinced i already posted something like this, but i guess not.
this is probably the worst i’ve ever been, but i know it’s not the worst i can be. isn’t that motivating.
