Eva’s Crazy Mind
i’ve wanted to make a forum post like that for quite a while now, but never brought myself to actually make it. here i will write up all sorts of thoughts and vents, everything i need to get off my mind. it’s not gonna be positive or motivational, not even close. i personally don’t recommend reading it just because it doesn’t help lol. you’re welcome to read, replies are okay, just be aware that it’s gonna be a pretty dark place. i don’t usually ask for help despite telling everybody to. idk why. i’m not a very good example of what’s right to do. TW just in case, not planning to go that far but who knows.
i’m making myself this space because sometimes you can feel lonely while being surrounded by a million people and that’s nobody’s fault.
best wishes to you. ❤️
i managed to drop some tears after what felt like quite some time.
and i almost felt something. almost..
not mad, just confused.
“realising you weren’t better, you were just distracted” ….. :’)
so uh.. yeah.
i’ve been ‘away’ for so long. for weeks, maybe even a month or a few, i’ve been detached from the world. it sucks, might not sound that bad, but it is.
*me to.. me.*
“i don’t wanna be you anymore”~
why’s my mind so quiet tonight? like helloo, it’s night… i’m starting to create those thoughts, but like not in a way that i want to return to that bad place and feel *** but also kinda..? because i’m used to it..? i’m so *** weird.
ohhh i know what i’m gonna do
which i’m gonna absolutely regret but c’mon it’s a good time for that right now and it’s only gonna destroy my mental health more later.. but that’s later so i’m good for tonight. (i’m so stupid lmao.)
oop nvm, guess not lol.
distractions distractions distractions i need distractions
