Eva’s Crazy Mind
i’ve wanted to make a forum post like that for quite a while now, but never brought myself to actually make it. here i will write up all sorts of thoughts and vents, everything i need to get off my mind. it’s not gonna be positive or motivational, not even close. i personally don’t recommend reading it just because it doesn’t help lol. you’re welcome to read, replies are okay, just be aware that it’s gonna be a pretty dark place. i don’t usually ask for help despite telling everybody to. idk why. i’m not a very good example of what’s right to do. TW just in case, not planning to go that far but who knows.
i’m making myself this space because sometimes you can feel lonely while being surrounded by a million people and that’s nobody’s fault.
best wishes to you. ❤️
i managed to get in trouble today, that’s great
i lied and said that i ate anything today, i’m surprised she believed that
my *** boot broke, that’s how lucky i am
i’m crying nonstop and if i do that enough, it’ll soon be obvious i had cried and once i have to get to the car to drive home with my mom, i’m gonna have to figure out how to explain it
people are leaving
i just realised, exactly a year ago i lost my best friend, and now i’m.. well, she’ll be back, but still.. losing, another best friend. the *** coincidence.
i had to fake a smile all day long, force myself to laugh sometimes
my brain told me to smile and hide everything, but my heart wanted me to cry. my eyes wanted to tear up and beg for help but it didn’t happen.
does anyone have any more bad news? today seems to be a great day for them
i’m so *** done, all i thought about today was- …