Eva’s Crazy Mind
i’ve wanted to make a forum post like that for quite a while now, but never brought myself to actually make it. here i will write up all sorts of thoughts and vents, everything i need to get off my mind. it’s not gonna be positive or motivational, not even close. i personally don’t recommend reading it just because it doesn’t help lol. you’re welcome to read, replies are okay, just be aware that it’s gonna be a pretty dark place. i don’t usually ask for help despite telling everybody to. idk why. i’m not a very good example of what’s right to do. TW just in case, not planning to go that far but who knows.
i’m making myself this space because sometimes you can feel lonely while being surrounded by a million people and that’s nobody’s fault.
best wishes to you. ❤️
it feels like my days are counted
will i turn 15 this summer?
will i finish 9th grade?
next year
will i go on that trip me and a friend planned to go to?
will i see the winter again in a year?
will i turn 18?
as for now, i do not know.
as for now, i honestly doubt it.
“we’ll see.”
kinda big tw.
a boy in my class broke his pen today, and then he took a sharp piece of it and started mocking the girl that cut herself in school. he didn’t do it strongly so he didn’t cut himself, it was just to make fun of the girl. it was painful to watch. then, he asked me if i cut myself. i said no. but it wasn’t an obvious kind of no. i obviously wasn’t gonna tell him, but i still hesitated. i was afraid he was gonna ask for “proof”, thank god he didn’t. but i don’t wanna be here anymore.
@justmeeva
he’s a bully. 😞 a big bully. people judge what they don’t understand. people hate. people hurt. that wasn’t right, what he said and did. i’m sorry such things happen in your classrooms, eva, that you witness such things and that you experience such things. it must have been scary and horrible ):
i wish people in this world had more empathy or even tried to understand a little. i wish they would call what they don’t understand, what they haven’t experienced “crazy.” sh isn’t funny. 😞
i wish they wouldn’t* call what they don’t understand crazy. i’m sorry. today’s typo day for me :') *smh*
