Eva’s Crazy Mind
i’ve wanted to make a forum post like that for quite a while now, but never brought myself to actually make it. here i will write up all sorts of thoughts and vents, everything i need to get off my mind. it’s not gonna be positive or motivational, not even close. i personally don’t recommend reading it just because it doesn’t help lol. you’re welcome to read, replies are okay, just be aware that it’s gonna be a pretty dark place. i don’t usually ask for help despite telling everybody to. idk why. i’m not a very good example of what’s right to do. TW just in case, not planning to go that far but who knows.
i’m making myself this space because sometimes you can feel lonely while being surrounded by a million people and that’s nobody’s fault.
best wishes to you. ❤️
whichhh.. triggered some memories that i now have to get out of my head.
and fast.
“she was so broken that even darkness felt bad and went to comfort her. now it’s all she really has. people come and go, but darkness is always there, somewhere. all the worst times they’ve passed together. only darkness really knows what she’s really going through.”
i uh.. i might take a look at some memories again. which.. are going to trigger flashbacks.. and we know what those mean for me.
no promises.. on anything.
i didn’t do anything that night (kinda surprised-), but now i remember. everything. i know that one night they’ll come to me. and then i might. then i will.
it was a bad idea, but i knew it would be. and at this point.. it doesn’t matter. who cares? i’m already *** up and will never not be, so it doesn’t matter. who cares?
@justmeeva
i care. 💙
@LoveMyMoonflowers
❤️
@justmeeva
💙 i’m sorry
@LoveMyMoonflowers
you didn’t do anything wrong, it’s okay 🩷 thank you for caring. 🩷
@justmeeva
okay 💙
gotta fake that smile all day today. can’t let them know.
but i’ll take it with me.
tw.
today’s mood is.. death.
